yes fucked up day! i need to buy a new TOSHIBA adaptor because my mum just step on it, and spoiled.. cb, fucking dulan u know.
knnbccb

38days
okay ytd met kb and st at woodland.
had lunch with kb, st and hweeling came after that.sihui amelia and joanne look for us awhile

slack till after sch, had main com interview. was rather funny.
went kpt for dinner. then home
37thdays
today suppose to go sch also. but i was too sick to get up, so i missed it.
slp for 18hrs and feel better now.
but still im fucking pissed!

any kind soul can lent me adaptor? :(

okay bye

thx to ewen, after i read this. my mood jitao drop to the max. :( emo max. thx ar ewen

T'S 7TH GRADE..
There I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend".Staring at her long, silky hair, how i wished she was mine.. But never did she think of me as more then a friend. I had always knew about it but i couldn't bare to give her up. Right after class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before,I digged into my locker and handed them to her. She said "thanks". And gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
IT'S JUNIOR YEAR..
My phone rang. It was her on the other end of the phone. She was in tears,mumbling on and on about how her boyfriend had just broken up with her. She asked if i could go over to her house and accompany her, she just couldn't stand the feeling of loneliness. So I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared into her soft blue eyes. Wishing that she was mine. She poured her heart out to me that night. See-ing her like that broke my heart. I really wish i could have done more then just be a "Friend" and a listening ear. I longed for more, more then a friendship but a partnership in life. Soon she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me. Said "thanks" and once again gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
IT'S SENIOR YEAR..
It was the day before prom. She walked up to my locker, "My date is sick" she said. He wasn't going to attend prom. I didn't have a date as well, and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neither of us had a date, we would go together.. And so we did..
IT'S PROM NIGHT..
Soon after prom, it was time to fetch her home.There I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her. And she gave me the most heartwarming smile. I really wanted her to be mine. Oh how i wish we were together, but i know that she doesn't think of me like that. Just "Friends"... Never more.. Then she said "I had the best time. Thanks!". And yet again she gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
IT'S GRADUATION DAY..
A day passed, and then a week, and then a month, before I could blink. It was graduation, I watched her perfect body float up like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I really wanted her to be mine. But she doesnt look me more the a "Friend" and i know it. Before everyone went home. She came to me in her smock and hat, she cried as I hugged her. She lifted her head from my shoulders and said "you're my best friend! Thanks!. And gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
IT'S A FEW YEARS LATER..
Now I sat in the pews of the church, She was getting married. I watched her say "I do" and drove off into her new life. Married to another Man, how i longed that she was mine. I still loved her, i wanted her to be mine. But she didnt see me that way, nothing more then "Friends" Just as she was abot to leave, she ran up to me. "You came! Thanks! , and she kissed me on the cheek. Once again I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
YEARS PASSED..
I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service they read a diary entry that she had wrote during her high school years.This is what it said. " I stared at him, wishing he was mine. But he never took notice of me. Maybe he just doesnt like me that way. "Friends" is just what we will be. But i really wanted him to know, i wanted to tell him that i loved him. I wanted him to know, that I didnt want to be just "Friends". I love him, but i was just too shy to let her know... and i dont know why... I wish he would tell me he loved me.. I wish I did too... i guess we are just not meant to be...Love,
Tears rolled down my cheeks as i mumbled to myself,Baby, I had always loved you and i always will.Though we may not be together.I cherished every moment we were together.Till i see you again,rest in peace my Love.



sad right:(
i think we should really start a new IG, emo IG. hahaha! i swear to god, no one can win me kb eugene ewen leon and fj. its fucking imba. i think even clown join us when hes smiling, he will end up walk away with tears. hahaha

okay, bye! :)
im missing a couple of ppl right now,
yea! but im not saying out the names. guess. hahaah.
have to rush the scenes for IB and X.S. will be very busy during weekends.

bd coming too
mid may still having filming for MOE thingy
the worst thing is, during my bd i stil have need to go down NAFA for modeling=_=
just sway.

39th day i gave it to sean hockboon and wee. 3 of my closest bro. sry man sean, u took leave for me, in the end i couldnt wake up. but still i love u man :)
meet 3 of them for dinner. after that slack til 10+ go home. haha short but nice slacking session with them. the time with them nvr bored me :)
when i enlist, 3 of u sure will be miss by me, im very sure:)

counting down for my 40days of freedom.
guess i will update everyday, who i spend the day with all sort. hahaha

today- 40th day

met sihui, cheng en and co at town for dinner.
had ding tai feng. then walk ard.
home~
ard 11pm met sean for supper.
then leon and tim join for drinks. hahaha

1+ leon and tim went home.
left me and sean slack at usual place.
till 350am.
here im, blogging here. ahha!


tmr should be meeting sean for swimming
then meet wee.

anyone want join in?
wed wil be going to sch..


how about my other friends??
st ?
calys?
kaile?
bin?
melvin?
jon?
kb?
jocelyn?
eder?
cecilia?
meiyin?
cypher?
tcp?
hello! its time to book me:)

i only left with 39days:)
hahahah


okay i should go now.
night peeps



do u know?
if i have a choice, i wished to spend this 39days with u..
yes u.

new wish list!
now my wishlist must be related to ns liao

itouch
phone without cam! thinik if can, i try to buy a bb. so i can online fb and tweeter even im in tekong

i have a bad new for
cypher ppl
sean
and
J...



i will be enlisting on 4th of june.
sad for cypher ppl is i cannot spend anymore time with u guys
sad for sean because i donno how to commit for TCP anymore
sad for J because i dont know if i can wait for the day til u settle down.

omg, everything is so screwed. like seriously.
:((
super sad

just back from rebel
just totally no mood. i rather slp at home sua.

AHHHHH!
FML.

i just miss u alot only. :(
does this help?
if yes, tell me. i will miss u more





for those who want spend my last freedom month with me. book me

alright, i think i want go emo one corner le. bye

TCP 2010 show!
intangiable bond:)
starter cast: sean weilong kenneth xian huan kaile shiying jaslyn adria chinteck vionna eunice roy adele and me
pls support when this drama come out k. ty

this is sean weilong and me.

what i should do now?
:(