i'm nt happy!! im nt happy =( so down, feel so down. hais

i feel so emo, think nvr feel in this way le since......... i put in alot effort, but in the end?? ppl who don come regular for training yet they get thing which they don deserve =(
chose 15ppl out of 16ppl, sound high chance right.. but sry hoz.. im the 1 who left out. when i know, i jitao no mood train. seriously, i just feel that im wasting my time for all these. endure for training? endure simi lanjiao, tell me.. 2yrs le, endure for 2 fuking yrs. what i get in return, zero confident and alot of exp being of cheer leader. u all say, u all have friendly, training or matches. which day im nt there. 100% loyalty for the team, yet im nt appericiate. except for ting yang, darren, desmond,vincent, hong yuan, ning, boon, zh and wayne.. who dare say they come for basketball thing more then me? where r u all when the team need u all? where r u all when we having tough training. ooh, i know le. during the fuking friendly and team selection then i saw u all.. fuk it even seb come mroe training then u all k. smlj..
if u all really wan to be in the team, come training. if u all really wan to win the match, show me. nt when lose le, sit at there all face black dao majiam my fuking shit. seriously, did u all wan rp to win or u all wan rp to be food..
i seriously wan rp to be famous, want rp to win.. hai, who really understand how im feeling.. i don to be a sub anymore. ppl go toilet i go in cham 1leg, come back le. ooh alouis u can go out le. nice hoz.
desmond thinking of quitting? sry hoz, me too. my mind now is full of quitting. maybe is just like melvin say. play for lessure. have mroe fun and more ppl regonise. _l_

I MISS YOU :( im happy for what we r now, just don dare to hope for more. im ur recyle bin, throw everything to me i don mind. let write a new story tog. .

你说你是雨天
而我是太阳耀眼
说我不适合出现在
你住的灰色世界
想晒干你的泪
却被你简单拒绝
在我手心里的温度
好想要分给你一点
我忽然期待天空能下一场雨
让我在冰冷的夜慢慢了解你
晴天雨天谁说不能想恋
我偏偏只想和你在一起
今天明天我都不想远离
我能够期待晴天下的雨
你说你不怕黑
一个人也无所谓
独自撑伞走过伤悲
不再和爱有关联
我想要带你飞
飞向彩虹的另一边
我们搬进幸福的里面
一直到永远的永远
我忽然期待天空能下一场雨
让我在冰冷的夜慢慢了解你
晴天雨天谁说不能想恋
我偏偏只想和你在一起
今天明天我都不想远离
我能够期待晴天下的雨

晴天雨天谁说只能对立
我偏偏只想和你在一起
美丽美丽好浪漫的晴天雨
我们的天空不再孤寂
晴天雨天谁说不能想恋
我偏偏只想和你在一起
今天明天我都不想远离
让我期待晴天下的雨
让我们的天空不再孤寂


歌曲：晴天雨

this song by TANK, nice? haha. funfunfun.. ytd tio praise till siao.. first time... lol.. :) haha. now in class, yawn. jia you jia you!! gogogo.. 我偏偏只想和你在一起

im so tired~~~~ today is the first day i pon sch since sch start.. im too tired le, everyday slp only 2h!! tml is weekend, i wan slp till like there r nobodys business.. heehee..
went to sch around 1pm, pass my special one sweet, then i go library sleep le.. i slp till 430.. went to sport complex shoot ball, after awhile all come le.. then go run 1 round of sch.. wa kan... nt big man.. tired..
then have some footwork drill, 3v2, 5on5, the end of training.. i still nt man yi of my performance.. totally sux.. sry teammate..


speical one: don forget u still have the sweetest and nicest smile i even seen.. =)

hey all, nth to do now.. so decided to come here to blog... haha, just reached home nt long ago.. recently really like alot drinking session.. haha.. lucky today nvr went to mos, or nt i think i will drink more..

ppl say drinking will let u forget everything in ur mind, but the more i drink more i will think.. haha.. nt bad hoz.. can think clearly and the things i wan i don wan..

i wan~~
a better style of playing bball, throw away my old and bad habit.. i wil try my best..
my passion back..
determination...
ppl who really care for me..
there alots things that couldnt be mention here ba.. but i noe myself..

i don wan~~~
bad luck..
ppl who don appreciate me..
ppl who come when need me, go when don need me.. i hated this the most..ha
blablabla...

wed, went k box with rp baller.. its a most fun moment with them.. i realy like it alot.. open number with dare... boon lick my leg, demond kristy kiss me.. wakao. haha.. so i decided to give damn alot idea to sabo the girls.. haha.. go ask the SIT CLIQUE, still rmb the dare we do in camp? haha. =P... after tht went to eat.. then went to qi's house downstair for drink..

thur- do nth but dota and maple lin.. i wan lvl up fast to 3rd job.. :)

fri- had training, i think my stamina really drop like fuk.. run awhile cannot le.. i was think of quitting smoking.. thinkink thinknk..

sat-bo slp just to wake someone up, in the end... blablabla.. haha.. then slp till 4 went to meet des seb wayne vin da lun go eunos eat.. coach treat.. we ate alot, drink beer, smoke and joke around.. ahha.. fun.. xiao qiang kinda crap la.. zhan lan hui lei.. kan.. haha.. then went to bugis to play pool, but full hse.. so we suggest go the place where desmond get 100% rejected rate in his life to play pool.. then went to drink again.. making me now headach.. sian..

last day of holiday le, sian... 3 weeks pass so fast.. nt enough... i want more.!!! haha :)
im gonna slp til late late!!!

p/s: seriously wat is r/s to me.. nth.. i don think i need it.. :)

sayo everyone..

girl, i forget why i wrote those le.. hha.. do u rmb?? anyway, im sry to make u sad wor.. dui bu qi!!!!!!! smile.. <3

im so sick now, TEK MEDIA called me and asked me whether want to work for the following road show.. 1odays road show.. im think should i go do or nt.. if im going to work for the road show, okay i'll have money, but im going to pon 1 week of sch.. should i should i nt.. someone tell me pls.. im so confuse now.. and pissed.. think i should go work ba.. go sch is so bored now.. emm.. and 1 week.. should be okay ba.. haha... emm.. selling camera.. can consider.. haha

arg.. i just don like the feeling of being sick.. it make me feel so terrible.. damnit...

i skip today's trainnig.. i don have the feeling again.. the feeling of enthu.. enthu to go training.. no more... theres no aim for me to go training.. just feel so tired..

anyway, who willing to do pp wuth me.. i want to start but i feel so lost.. :(

there r ppl who keep asking me to blog just becoz they wan to noe wats going on with my life now.. haha.. so, i put aside of my laziness.. and blog about myself now..

let start on monday..

monday~ meeted my meow meow jie mei and bring her to tek media for interview.. hope she will be wokring le la.. haha .. she is experience k.. haha.. don siao siao.. is rainin all the way, so we have to take cab to TM.. she insisted to pay the fare, but too bad, im a gentleman. haha.. after the interview, she said shes hungry, so i bring her to my uncle there to eat prawn noodles.. nice?? she say is very nice.. :) go see my dad for a while.. then we walked to mrt to meet teh ppl we r meeting.. meow is meeting her bf, and im meetng evon for movie.. while waiting for her, i smoke twice.. for the 2nd time, she came when i haven finish the cigg.. okay, shes rushing me.. so i so SHOOT THE CIGG BUTT ON THE FLOOR!! evon said: shoot lei, later tio fine then u noe.. i was going to say something, a guy with a pass ask me to take out ic.. nb, ppl from MOE.. E FOR EVIROMENT.. i was fined $200 for throwing a cigg butt on floor.. sian.. okay nvm, is funny.. me and evon was like laughin all the way.. haha
we watched evan.. is a very funny and nice movie..
rate: 3/5 stars

after that walked ard cwp and send her home. the end for monday... haha

tues~slp till kinda late, didnt go for trainin..=x haha.. someone say wan wake up and morning me.. but i don wan.. too tiring for her le.. heart pain.. =x.. haha... around 4 to 5 plus.. went to town with rp baller there alot ppl la.. i like this kind of outing.. eveyone play and enjoy tog.. we went to eat sakura buffet.. yum yum.. but after everything, (which fuking bastard suggest to play zhong ji mi ma ar) i drink an vert disgusting drink.. kao... but me make vincent drink that vinegar shark fin soup.. nice?? wahha..
after that, wnet to play pool and that all for tuesday!!

wed~ they suggested b4 the frenly, we go yewtee play ball.. as usaul, i was late. i reached like 2plus.. but someone is later then me.. so i don need to treat someone drink.. wahaha..
after balling, went to frenly.. tama jurong.. all star team.. siao de.. after this match, i just feel like quiting le.. sian..

thur~ early in te morning, been wake up to go help my mum.. tired de lei.. haha.. sms her when working.. blablabla.. just rmb wat i told u k :) haha .. fall aslp after played maple with baller.. sian.. but lvl up le.. haha.. wake up now doing nth.. actually wan go my frens hse de.. at ntu de hostel.. family don let.. so sian.. im sry :)

to someone: i will be alway be there for u, like how u alway be there for me too.. i nvr once feel down for mroe then 1h, becoz ur there to cheer me up. im glad ur there, im glad u let me feel my existant, im glad to have u as my best fren.. maybe u donno how much i cherish iu, now i tell u.. i cherish u more then i cherish anything else.. and i meant it.. i have nth much to say to u.. only 1 word... thx!!