Disturbia

hey everyone...
couldnt slp and im still awake now..
em... hai.. donno what to blog lei..
simply no mood to blog.. haha.. but im bored, so bo bian.. long nvr update le..

just now went to see her blog,
i though i can get over it,
but when the moment i saw her pic,
my heart drop...
tears comin out again.. few drop nia.. haha
but i know that there's no way that it could turn back or wat..
maybe she already forgot u le..
she don bother u le..
haha..
this is wat i deserve de ba..
i nvr regret at all..
becoz ur finding ur true love now...
i will pray hard for u de..
happy that u get over it..
don think of me again..
worthless..
im nt that gd that u guys said..
im a selfish bf or watever actually..
but

i feel so lonely..

who can accompany me..

or lent me shoulder??

i need to talk with someone now..

just feel that im going to explode soon...

who, really understaned me..
who really know what im thinking
who really know what i want..

no one....

pure loneliness..

yea..

that all for the emo parts..
now..
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haha
he is been nomi for the siaocao thing la..
pls, ppl who view my blog.. plsplspsl vote for him... :)

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thx alot...

and to those who wan do funny thing..
i know what u all wan to do hoz.. if is fren... don nomi me hoz.. if u do i will kill u.. haha u should know who ur.. rawr!! f5,, :)

<3 all... tc..

you are a bird in my heart,
love to fly around
and have freedom.
im just a cage to u,
i locked u up
and don dare to
set u free,
coz once u fly
i wonder how im going to
hold u back.

for this time round
i set u free,
for ur belove freedom,
i looked at ur back
u getting futher and futher
just want to say bye and take care.

im happy that u once beside me b4.
thank for everything
:)

ytd, once again, my tears roll down my on cheek...

And,

this is the last time..
i
promised
myself
with
that..

thing will come to the end unless u hold on to it tight or u try to wan hui.. just cant understand that u just see me go without doing anything..

sian..
bored..
kan sian..
kan bored..

yawn..
wanna slp..
slp more..
more and more..

just need something frrm u now

haha.. hi everyone.. long didnt post le.. hah.. hardly find the time to post things out.. haha.. (actually is i too lazy la).. haha.. and ppl request me to post le... haha so yea...

pass few day really guai lei me.. went to sch , and im nt late k. haha.. first time..

ytd i was playing maple, suddenly receive a call, my grandms answer the phone and that call was ffrom my uncle.. he told my grandma that he had an accident near alexandra rd there.. and the cut keep bleeding. when we nod that we was like ,huh!!!!
then without changing, we just rush there. i ask teh taxi driver put me down at the trafic light there, i run there and saw my uncle. his whole face, both hand and shirt covered with blood. omg!! can u all imagine that..

then we send him to NUH by taxi.. then we pasby my uncle's car, the car was totally crashed. and the head was under the bus.. =_=
cant really believe that my uncle can survived this.
after check up, doctor say his mouth have alot pieces of glasses.. donno how.. and a very deep 10cm cut on the eyebrown there..
hope his alrigth.. godbless..

to u.. do u nod that ur losing me, do u nod that???? haha. think u nt even noticing it ba.. haha.
hope u can get a gd guy ba.. im nt gd enough for u..

and i have lost my passion for basketball le.. haha :)

haha.. nt even emo now... going to sch soon le..
hellos~ thx for suport my blog ar..
bombibi~u all rox man.. <3
clubinig~moremoremoremore.. haha i wan dance with u all...

tc everyone :)

throughout the night, i was listening to 3 song as usual when i was thinking something..

im gonna mis u forever
yi zhi
till the end.

3emo song i alway listen recently.. really getting more emo when days past..

i was thinking, is her heart still with me?? will she come back?? everything everything.. i was rather confuse by myself becasue the though i having now has been troubled me for like many weeks le.. 1month plus le ba.. hai.. time really pass fast without even notice it..
life without u is a suffering for me.. but just thinking ur life will be better with me or without me.. thinking of the pain and hurts i brough to it, scare i will repeat it again.. hai..
i just have faith on myself no more.. alot of scene, esp in night, flashing through my mind.
remind of the gd memories of us.. smiling, playing and walking..
i miss ur hand, i miss ur smile..
just hope u can give me a while,
to tell u how i feel all this while.
standing far,
see u laugh see u smile..
making me feel better
say if u happy i will happy all is just a fake,
wat i actually want,
is u by my side..
nvr leave me.. forever..

am i that bad?
for u to accept me again?
or u scare i will hurt u agian..
i promise i wont,
but i nod i wont gain ur trust for u anymore.
but, do u feel this is the best way for us?
don u scare, 1 day we will lost each other.. without any reason..
if u say u don, but i do..
think what is the best for us...
i can ensure that this is nt the best way..
maybe this workable at the start when we end,
but when tiime drag...
nononono..
this will only bring us more hurt and pain..

i donno ur heart still with me??
but my heart will follow u whereever u go....
forever... just becsaue of 1word..
love........
r u still with me?? tell me pls.. hai

hi everyone, im here to blog again.. haha... emm.. holiday really very sian la... recently keep go play ball a kovan.. haha.. there is my new play ground le... i just like to play there becasue it makes me feel that i jump high again.. and the ppl there kinda nice la.. haha the emo kia rebecca, the"frog", birthday boy weida and his fren... since thursday im playing there le... ha.. till today..

actually today gt training de, but due tosome reasons, its cancel.. make me and fred go all the way down.. haha.. bo bian then went 121 and 127 play ball.. lol.. play 4on4 all the while.. emm.. gt win gt lose ba.. but the last few matches.. that guy damn strong le la.. wonder who is him.. haha.. wanna play like him.. train train! hha..

fred and evon~ take care of urself ar.. sick le still can play ball and go work.. wan die ar.. drink more water and rest as much as u can.. take lot care bom bibi~~~~~

shir~better write u 1 too.. later u say i unfair.. haha.. u seem like trouble with something.. haha. anythig can tel me de la.. no worries.. bom bibi wil be there de.. :) tc when working..

狗仔队~seriously, sometimes i can from emo become happy is all ur credit.. but sometime u also make me from happy to emo.. hah nvmm.. that don include.. if u aint there. i donno what i will b now... emm.. maybe will commit suicide le.. haha.. but from my heart... thx alot fren :)

YOU~hmm.. holiday le, cant really have the chances to see u.. seriously speaking, i miss u..hai.. just wanna see ur smile agian.. just you... hai.. must take lot care ar.. rmb... u still owe me 1 thing... and go buy soon dumbass.. tc too:)

hah..think that it le ba.. no more ppl le hoz.. if gt.. tell me i write.. haha.. back to my bloging

this few days found some songs that r really nice.. fang yi cheng, yi zhi and i'm gonna miss you forever...
emm.. 'meaningful songs.. i really love it very much.. hai.. YOU, if u reading this.. go listen ba(although i send u 1 of the song le) , stay for a few mins, listen the song finish.. is how i feel toward u.. i wanna tell u 2 thing now.. only 2 things... i miss YOU and i love YOU... can u see this?? can u??
sometime really will get emo when keep listen to these 2 song... on the back home, at home... or outside.. hai.. :(
readers, sry to be so emo at times.. i nod most of my posts all emo de.. but, no choice.. these is wat i feel now.. and i just cant change my mood la... since that day....
so yeah, movie pay $7.50++ also have ending de.. so byebye... and this is free of charge for u all to see.. shooshoo.. :) take care ar all readers..:)

范逸臣一直

haha.. this is the latest song in my blog.. recently im keep finding that songs can suit my heart now.. hmm.. think this song nt bad ba.. haha.. tell out that how im feeling now.. so guys, when listening to this song, don emo k.. .. YES U!! DON PRETENT TO BE BORED, U R EMO... LOL!!
HAHA...

the feeling of being alone, doesnt feel good... i just want the feeling of being love again once more... hai :(

just now went to play ball.. emm.. even my leg litat.. i still cant stop playing, just wish that can brk my leg till cant wwalk ba.. haha.. emm... wat a life im having now... just simply sian, sux and bored.... =_=

friday---

i went to kovan play ball again.. haha.. like quite a number of ppl ba... weida, and some i forget teh name le.. nice ppl thou.. haha.. hmm.. the standard there nt bad, but the ring just simply too short le.. i think i can try to dunk at there next time when my leg okay le.. haha..
do nth much today la...
wake up at 4something....
leave home for ball at 6 something...
reach kovan 7something...
finish ball at 9something..
finding some emo kia til 10 something...
take train back home 11something..
sms her and online chat at 11something...
haha.. although we have nth to chat, but know that u r fine just make me happy. donno y.. emm.. think u really become a very important ppl in my life le ba... just simple love UUUUU so much.. :( hai... wanna say these out to u once more.. will i have the chance again????? just my little wish for this yr....

Labels: i love u

hey.. aha.. just end of the tiring and stupid pc show which com is lesser then pervious IT show.. wth.. although is tiring. but nod a couple of new fren.. haha.. my competitors, bao ying and junlong.. we 3 r fightinh for the last 2 place in top 3 seller.. haha.. kinda fun and stress la..

and our dear deal writer, chinting and jonnaton.. haha. they r so blur can.. lol!!
i sold a toally of 50sets of mp3... hmm.. rank 2nd in all promoter.. yea..
with nelson, yong seing and ivy(the other ivy, nt her.. if is her i will happy will siao.) hah.. this SHOW IS FUN!! we r crapping, talking, slacking and smoking all teh time.. wahah..

u know what... on the 3rd day of the show, there a ah neh..(bangala) damn funny..
here what he say...

THE AH NEH SAW OUR MP3 AND RUN TOWARDS ME..
AH NEH(talk to ah neh2) :heyhey, neh neh, u see this.. nice neh... eh boy(boy=me), this is ipod ar??
ME: NONO, BOSS THIS IS SAMSUNG LASTEST MP3, K3.
AH NEH:ooh really ar, so nice~~ this is samsung ipod ar..
ME(FAINT) :NONO, THIS IS SAMSUNG MP3, NT IPOD...
AH NEH: OOH, MP3 IPOD..
ME: ........

LOL, wat a neh.. he gone le i laught till crazy la
so tired la today slp till very late..
go kovan, kena cheat by reb go down.. play ball nt even 1min nia... twisted ankle.. injured.. nb.. now at home cant even walk.. very pain.. sad.. think is the end of my bball career le..

for u....
i nod that u care for me, i nod that i always hate u without notice it.. im sry.. i just wanna tell u that i still love u as much as last time, but i miss u much more then last time.. i really miss u alot la.. sometimes i will just stone and look at my phone and wish that when u free u will sms me or call me.. when i receive ur sms.. i feel very happy... i will always be there for u de dear.. hai.. i love u..