ytd went to sentosa, looking at the sea... make me think alot of the past... kinda moody i think=(
the weather gets hot.. down the water to refresh a bit.. in the end, gt sting on the hand by jellyfish i think.. my back bang by a bicycle, causing my old injuries pain till now.. omg la, damn sway..

deep in my heart, theres a feeling that i cant explain out.. is that the feeling of sad? or pain? i donno.. i really donno.. i really lost interest in everything now.. sch, basktball, friend and more..

i just wan to ask u one question,

if one day i ever die, will u miss me or regret?
maybe ths is called retirbution?
for the girls i hurt in the past.. now, its my turn..
although, i turn into a new leaves but still im sry...
for everyone.. J,I,K... =)

if time can go back to the time i know u again, even i know all this hurt and pain will be repeated again.. but still, i will still love u as much...
i hate to lose u..
i hate ur coldness
i hate u to leave me
i hate to cry, like now =(

ytd don feel very good, was drinking alone.. have the urge to watch the drama leon introduce me..

its called "one litre of tears"

11ep with 1 special ep.. finsih it within 1 day.. i watch how long, i cried how long.
i ownself also donno, whats the reason for me to cry? its the drama very touching.. or its my heart crying for my pain?

thing come to this extent.. we both have the fault. since we decided on this way to solve the problem.. i nth much to say le. i only hope that the pain in my heart wont last long.. beocz its so pain till i cant take it anymore..

god is unfair right, ha.

just reach home nt long ago.. today was a tired day for me.. haahaha.

recah sch at 9++.. suppose to practice the performance for MR/MS SIT de, but all late.. and lastmin have a news that my song that i suppose to sing, hte vocal part cant be taken away. i was stress to a extent that my mind totally blank.. omg la.. luckily, in the end, thx to melvin and jie ying.. the song able to edit finsh without the vocal part..

12++.. 2008 MR/MS SIT finally started. it start off with a cat walk from M1(me) and F1(ivy).. then followed by M/F 2-5~~ starting quite okay la..
after that, was the Q&A time for every one. the Q i got is "if your life only left 5min, what will u do?" i answered them by saying i wan to spend my time with my family and my love one(kelly) =D..
okay, here comes the most nervous part.. talent time. we was notices that each of us have to come out with a 2.5min talent and perform. i chose the part tat i most no confident in.. singing~
wei ni xie shi..
i really very nervous at that time, when im about to sing. my mind was totally blank. and i forgot the lyrics for the starting part. hahah. but surprisingly.. kaile and fel they all say everyone was impressed with my vocal.. for the first time in my life?? omg.. really thx for kai le and fel.. giving me so much support and confident. thx=D

hte reason why i wan chose this song, mainly is becoz of u. i sing this song for u girl.. thx for coming down to supprt me.. letting me know u r there for me. <3

ivy dance nt bad, bryan and his partner dance perfomance nth to say. only can say woho~ leon and vivian.. good try.. jeff and serence be more confident la.. yong ann and candy try again next yr.. can win de..

really thx for those who came down for me. see u all again next yr=))

after the event, went to watch movie with my girl. watch maxpayne. the movie was alright. after that eat and went to kelly's hse for mj session.. change wallet comfirm gt use.. i won quite alot in 1 pot.. hahaha,nt bad.. =D=D finally.. hten stay at kelly's hse till 4++ then go home. all the way look at her when shes slping. haha. the more i spend time with her, the more i fall deeper in love with her.

although 2 days pass le, i was waiting for u to say something that i expect.. think u frget le.. i just wana to say, baby happy "4 month" anni.. time pass very fast right. those happy time that in my heart its still fresh as thou its happen ytd. reading the msg we had forthe past 5months, really making me feel sad. we was so lovely and sweet in the past. why thing between us have to become litat? but i noe, in ur deep heart. u still love me. u still wanna be with me de.

can give me 1 more chance? i really need u so much.. becz i really love u... just 1 more chance..

tml having camp UandI dry run in sch.. have to reach sch by 11. omg. sian.. donno can wak up nt. later 745 calling tat silly waking up.. hope she don over slept.. im missing her so much now.. =((((

feeling so lonely.. hais~

maybe more pics will be uploaded. if have la.. hahaha blog again next time.. bbbbbb

Today its the earliest i reach school. can u imagine alouis lim reached sch at 740?? haha alouis lei!!! break my record le.. > < cant say much la, came from ben's hse. hahahaahha very near school.. hahaha..

okok, now come to a very impt part le.

i want to anouns that....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO~~~~~~

AUDREY!!!!!

Today its her birthday la, i nvr msg her and wish her at 12. becoz wan to surprise her during the morning.. so yea, success to my plan. she's surprise.. nt bad nt bad...
she is a silly girl la! haha ask her what she wan for her birthday. she jitao say she wan my smile for her present.. lol! wat a silly 1... hahaha.

wan my smile right. nah.. =D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D 17 smile for u

good nt me?

once again, happy birthday silly dumbass..

o o o o o o o
ll ll ll ll ll ll ll
(========)
(========) cake for u..

happy birthday to u!!
happy birthday to u!! happy birthday to audrey..
happy birthday to u!!

now currently at ben's room. just finish our mj session. guess my luck wasnt with me again. for donno how long, im always the losing side. hate the feeling when losing... kinda angry when playing ba. donno why also.. maybe recently my mood nt good i think...

lying on the floor, suddenly think of her... few months ago, during the camp.. during every outing.. we was stil so sweet and fine.. but look at now, u really change alot, nt the way of being mature.. u change heart.. very obvious didnt it. im very sure this is nt the way of being mature..
its breaking my heart picecs to picecs..

im telling myself, alouis don care about her le.. what u r doing, she feel meh. no matter wat u do, she don care.. she really don care.. but, when i see her online, i start to softheart again.. ask her wat shes doing. and care about her.. im really stupid.. to the extent that, nth can helps.

alouis. u sucks.
alouis u r hopeless.
=((

why shes enjoying her life. but here im suffering. no 1 really noe how much im hurt inside. T.T

god, pls let me forget her hao ma.. T.T

im feeling real miserable now.. for months le. why she can let it go so easily but nt me?

is that the diff between our love?

now feels like thousand of knief stabbing my heart.. =(

pain, so pain....

if thats my fate that my life must ful of pain, i rather don wan it =,(

don feel very good yesterday. think sick... nvm nvm will start to take care myself..
was kinda down ytd, people also treat me as fren liao. also throw away our past, our memories our feeling. why i stil expect so much from her, from me, from us.. im kinda stupid right.
guess i have restrict wat im doing le...

hais, why so long le. i stil suffering.... =(

now in sch slacking, just now went to ben's hse for mj session.. lose a bit.. after that come to sch and slp lo. tired tired.

wed work was fine, but fight almost happen.. hahaha
anyway im going to join combat boxing =)) go have a try, maybe i have the talent to box? hahahahahh dream dream..

this few days, being thinking alot. drink alot also.
people might say, don get injure becoz its very pain..
for me, the pain in the heart then is the real pain. you donno the way cure it. donno the way to stop it. the pain just goes on and on.. hais...

wat else more i can do? no more.. wo ren ming le, wo xin ye si le.
she cut her hair.. nt bad la. new cut new beinging for her. its good tht she lives happily.. just leave the pain all to me..
in times i will forget too de..

xin tong de feeling, hao nan sou.. =(

小宇 - 终于说出口

放飞心情

你终于说出口
其实你早就已经不爱我

为什么要低着头
你知道这玩笑骗不倒我

可是这不是玩笑
是要逃避你离开我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
一心想离开我

我终于也说出口
其实很爱你 但从没认真说过

或许是我的错
多在乎你却只放在心中（Yeah）
不要问我为什么
因为爱你这就是我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
没什么需要被原谅
我笑得有些牵强
你知道我总是能够假装不难过
Oh不想看你那么累
多希望再给我机会
颤抖着我的手
握住的只是风

我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
一心想离开我
oh no no...
~~End~~



now in class doing nth.. first time being in my yr1 class. for math II sibei sian.. later still must work.. till 11+... omg la...

just now during first break meet kelly. she just cut her hair short. nt bad la, qutie suit her. makeher look cute somehow. =)

and that fucker leon.. thx for give me 14 votes.. screw u upside down..

hello evryone =) here to blog again.. i think i can go stay at europe.. simply becoz nowadays i slp during the day i slp, but im fully awake in the night.. > < hahaha.. poor me.. no life..

have a good news to share with evryone.. this yr, finally im out of the sabo-tion for MR SIT=D wahhahahahahhahahhaha.. lucky enough to escape from this thing this yr.. poor leon...
hahahahah

everyone pls vote..

leon for mr sit
kelly ang for ms sit..
nomi them with ur frens=D
wahhahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahhaha forgive me for these.. its my turn for sabo

how many ppl really understand me? none!
serious speaking, im really tired of thing happeaning ard me. no one wil really understand how and wat im feeling inside..

its kinda rubbish when someone say they don wan to give u fasle hope when they have being doing those.
they like to come in to ur life, make them an impt person that someone then leave whenever they like.. when u all doing these, do u all ever thought of the feeling for that person u all hurting? all u always thought hte thing u do is always right...

just one thing i can say, u donno how much hurts and miserables u leave me..
i kinda envy that mernel.. no more trouble, no more fan nao.. when's my turn?
recently too many thing im been stress on le.. u, family, studies, money, frenships.. i donno how long more i cant hold on. i wont be surprise if 1 day i really chose to leave this wrld that full of trouble.

just suck jst suck..

if i can hate u, i will.. but my love toward u covers every single thing u have done to hurt me.
if times can repeat, i will still chose to love u.. becoz indeed u make me cant forget u.. this is what other girl cant do.

leon im sry..

Labels: tired

my heart is totally cold now..

Labels: tears is just my tools for my emotions

thursday finally, went to sch and see my dear classmates.. hahahah. long nvr go sch due to tiredness and work.. > < go sch in the end, 3rd meeting jitao slp all the way...
during 1st breakout, meet someone who i long nvr seen. kelly ang.. kinda happy to see her becoz real long nvr see her le.. i missed the way i hug her and she hook my hand. finally, i gt the chances to do those again.=)although we r nth now, but still.. the feeling is so happy i guess? becoz i really have those urge to hug her=)

friday did nth except slp and eat.. evening went to kelly hse with cecilia and leon for mj session. 1st time went to her hse. lose 20. but nvm la. after that took the last train home from sk=)

today, didnt get much slp then went to work.. expecting much from today's match but in the end, disappointed. nvm=)
after work went to family chalet for bbq with all my family. then bro send me home=)
and now im blogging at my bed. song! tml i gt nth to do, anyone gt any plan for me=(( im bored...

disappointment and anger is the only thing i can say now.. im really speechless from all ur action.
get more information from my private blog. don wish to say much here. pissed

okay peeps, blog till here le. will be bac next time..

if u reead this post! tag me before u leave alright=) loves

Labels: you are different

yawnzz, off work at 1130 litat. today kinda busy ba, 2matches going on today. exciting=D looking forward for next match. and kinda angry becoz some idiot open my bag and took my thing. _l_ nvm.. forgive him..

ytd went to hoyu dye hair.. brown red base and ash green/ mag highlight. but the highlight nt very obvious so nt very hapy with that. haha..

still thinking later wan go sch nt. very sian. hahahah. see how ba..

friday till sun im alone at home, who wan come acc me> < damn fucking sian sia. sat gonna work again..

okok donno wat to blog le. so bye bye=D