merry christmas to all =D hope u all did enjoyed the christmas this year...
anyone ever thought of whats is an ideal christmas for u in ur life? if nt, maybe u can spend a few min alone and think about this..
and for me, i've been hoping the ideal christmas will happen on every yr, but just disappointment came along the way..
seriously, i donno why even its so simple but still cant cme true... what i looknig for in a christmas, its just spending the day with the one i like/love romantic ways.. thats what im looking for only.. for my almost 21 yrs of life, don say christmas, even big days like valentine days or watever i also nvr spend it with my love one before.
its kinda lonely for me.. but still what can i do, nth but just wait.. hoping the next big day will be my ideal 1=(

christmas eve- went over to leon's house for dinner with leon wee ben vincent james jeff serene.. how long that we didnt gather tog for dinner and stuff.. the lame joke and thing kinda missed it.. its a fun one i swear, cant stop laughing when having the dinner.. hahahaha..
after dinner played a rd of mjwith leon, jeff/serene and ben.. after mj, me wee join leon vincent james ben over to 1 club called mimolette at eng neo rd there... okay, i swear its the most boring place i ever go... $18 for entry with 1 free drink..paid another to drink, but nvr drink any. the music not bad thou but all of us doesnt have anymore mood to dance..
ard 4++am, 8 of us include tim and his gf.. went back to leon's hse for mj session till 11am..
reach home at 12pm.. that the end of my christmas=)

THING(s) IM THANKFUL FOR IN 2008:
1)im thankful that god let me meet all of my brothers and friends.. esp wee hb leon mel bin kaile and most importantally 's' ... all of u add on lots of lots of lots of colour in my life.. without u all, my life will be fill of black and white..
2)im thankful that my friends and family ard me nth happen them and always that healthy=)
3)im thankful that theres ppl to hurt me, to let me learn so much thing from it..

THING(s) IM LOOKING FORWARD TO IN 2009
1) ppl ard me stays healthy always
2)to have my ideal days with her
3)no more emo me
4) no more smoking
5)fit alouis
6) go sch regularly
7)smooth road for my r/s
8)$$$$$ come come > <
9)no more trouble for me and my frens and family

conclude: to be a better man


anyone wan ask me out > < im bored

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Halo air-vri-wan, ku ed moaning.. (hello everyday, good morning)
just woke up from my slp, nth much to do, so lai here to blog. waha..
emm, okay lets get started with sat =)

sat-meet her at commonwealth, she wan to go shop ard for her stuff. so, headed to fareast with her. she gt herself a pair of shoe, a dress at fareast.. after that ate old cheng kee food and headed to cityhall. shes meeting her famly over at espernade for nutcrashing event. brought twilight give her because shes been looking for it, acc her over to durian then went over to meet wee and boon.. okay, thats where the whole story get started.

i told them, we r meeting at 6pm. in the end, wee reached at 8. boon reached at 10. damn power... but nvm, went over to some bar drink and watch soccer.. after a while, wee said he wan to eat prata,so we went over to nearby prata shop. when eating, i suggsted after our meal we go see babok at orchard tower.
nightmare lai liao.. those ppl whos my loyal reader, if u rmbed the day where man united played again chelsea.. i blogged about i been grab by 1 babot right. okay,this time the same fucking babot.. same 1 hoz! run toward me and fucking grab me very hard.. i try to walk away say i wan go smoke.. u know wat that cb answer me? u go smoke, i smoke "yours" la. =_= freak me out.. okay, when i was grabbed, i shouted wee's name. in the end, wee and boon first reaction its run away without me.. sibei steady and brother.. thx ar! hahaha..

after all the babot thingy~ went to take NR 5 home=)

sunday- sat reah home at 4+ i think, i swear to u that on this sunday of mine.. i nvr see any daylight, just because i slept for 15hs++ =)

monday- send lunch give her, after that meet wee and boon over at boon lay mrt control for kaile's chalet at downtown east resort... reached ard 7++ .. bbq alot, eat alot. haha. slack til 1+ went over to park/beach to slack with wee boon sylvia.. after tat called kaile des edmund bong to join us.. go red hse to explore.. reached frontgate, donno why everytime i go there, it give me a chill feeling frm spine.. in the end only me boon and wee went in.. its freaking dark.. but start walking a few steps only, wee wan go out liao.. so only left me and boon..
down the path, its freaking dark.. and alot of trees which u cant see it from outside. even i turn on my flash light, its still a bit dark for us to see. the whole thing just give me a creepy feeling, esp the dark room i saw, i try to flash in with my light. i still cant see anything inside. after walk 1 round, me and boon decided to go out le.next time get more ppl, i want explore more...

after that went back to play cards.. till 8in the morning.. slept for 1h.. booked out at 10+ .. went over to white sand eat sakae. they eat la,i no appetite to eat. but now when im blogging, im hungry =(
train home with syl, wee, boon , edmund.. something that light up my day happen =) thx wee.
but now, something happen to dim down my day happen, damn sad=( but nvm, still trying hard
nvr say died.. gogogo alouis..

tml eve, donno bin hse stillon or nt.. hahaha feeel a bit lazy to celebrate xmas.. hahaha.. wee u still have me... lets spend our xmas eve tog ba

i enjoyed every single moment with u, but still now im damn sad because of this msg...hais.

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finally back home~
ytd went over to 619 for balling with boon and wee.. saw leon's fren, kenny, his brother and his fren. so played tog. wasn't that bad... was an enjoyed session for me.. ard 8++ sylvia came down with her fren to play ball also. finish balling ard 9+.. went over to PM to eat, send her home and headed over to leon's hse for mj session.

won 30+, slp over at his hse.. supposingly going out with her, but things happen. so didnt go out with her today. instead, go over to mum's stall to find her eat dinner with boon and wee. after that slack at some playgrd nearby til 12 and bus home..

this 2 day just nt my day.. don feel good totally.. think just like u said, im really too easily affected by the things u say. i know is my bad, but still i hate this feeling in my heart=( im sry

tml think meeting wee and boon again.. 3 standard slacker during weekend =) but enjoyed

can i say 'i miss u' to u? i just mis u through the bottom of my heart.. just u

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omg~ woke up with an aching body.. my muscles, is aching everywhere la. ytd while watching tv, i did some excercise that long nvr do. push up sit up and some weights. 1step closer to 'fit' alouis. =)

i donno what happen to me, think u've totally took control of my feeling and emotions.. i can feel happy and sad for u very easily. just a small thing, can make the world turn ard... just feel kinda empty now, with no sms and outing.

i miss her so much now.. the face of her, the smile of her.. just keep on appearing in my mind.. im crazy liao~~ just hoping that she will call me and say: alouis! basketball still on.. come down lei.. =(
fucking hell.. why must rain.. TAKE THAT!
the HB feeling is so strong... guess, im really in love with u deeply..
with just u, able to let me change anything. just for u

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im home~ just reach home nt long ago.
today suppose to wake up at 930am, go over to sbc and meet her at 1130.. but in the end.. i overslept and woke up at 12+ =( im damn sad, because of this she said shes going with her frens. disappointed with myself. but nvm, 2+ she called me and asked me whether im free or nt because shes at tamp mall. ofcoz im free for her la! rawr, quickly change and went over to meet her.

watched twilight with her at tm. twilight very nice. 4/5 star for movie watcher=D after that went delifrance eat then send her home..

i will train back.. i wan be fit. now i have the motivation to gym.. just give me few months.. i will!! fit alouis is coming soon!

im being waiting for this words from u very long le. no matter how long it takes. i will wait. good thing goes to those who wait patiently right=D
thx girl


tml baskeball and gym

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im here to blog blog=D
the 2 days im gonna blog about is some thing really make me happy=)

friday- woke up ard 11+am, bathe and meet her at commonwealth station for our DATE( if u see this, i wan say date! can or nt! =P). went over to vivo to eat carl jr first, then follow up by her shopping time! just following behind her and let her shop, and waiting for her to say what she want to buy then i wan buy give her. In the end! she didnt buy anything! damn damn.. hahah , give me chance make u happy la! hahaha

i wan buy thing give u not because don wan u spend money, just wan u to be happy. inexchange with ur smile. for that, im willing to buy anything give u=) so don always say thx this thx that or wat don wan! lim bei will slap u till u fly! ( if i bear to =))

after shopping at vivo, train down to taka because she want to get something from kinokuniya.
this time u cant escape the fate of me helping u pay the thing u want. waha. manage to pay for her. song...
got myself a shade =)
continue with her shopping~~

ard 6+.. acc her to SBC because she having match over there.. not she play, shes the ref.. hahaha.. when watching those u14 played. kinda make me emo for this. was thinking, wat im doing at this age? just because of some ppl in the team, i quit sch team in sec sch. those u14 player they have their future, but wheres mine? im so regreted of nt being serious at that time. =(
waited for her till 930, cab her home as usual. send her home..
when on the way sending her back, she starteda topic which i most disgust myself on. my unglam and regret past.
life is like that, no ppl care about u when u do countless of good thing, but when u just did 1 bad thing. thats the end. how many ppl know i've changed. how many ppl know how i feels inside when i heard those words. i dont hope for anything, jsut a chance. for me to prove that im a diff person.. at lease, not everyone but u.. i donno did those word make u feel im that kind of person, but im trying my best to prove to u that they're wrong. pls trust me wholeheartedly. okay? thanks 'S', for giving me this chance. at lease, this cheer me up. thx.. i wont disappoint u, just trust me


meet wee after that, went leon's hse for mj session. my form come back liao. easy easy win $30.. lol!! > < long nvr win liao.. finally.. damn song. after mj went eat 'breakfast' with wee and ben then cab cab home slp=)

woke up at 1+pm. went over to amk hub to meet her for movie. the first movie we ever watched=))))))))))) after movie, shop again=) she didnt get herself anything. sianzasion~~~ when u will buy ur thing ar? lololololol! 5+ cab her to cck mrt, shes meeting her fren over there. then say bye to her le =((((((((
went back home change, meet wee and hb for bball at 617. saw her with her neighbour eating at pm. say hi then nth le, butbutbut... someone act dao! walk other way nvr say hi to me! hahahahh. i will pinch u tml when i see u! rawr!
slack till 3+ took NR5 home.. so, now im here bloging. song. haha

time with u, really bring me smile and HB feeling. i may do alot stupid thing that u wont be expecting, but all these, its just a thing to make u smile. because, ur smile is able to bring me the xinfuu feeling. =) just hope that, the time with u, can go slower. i just want to enjoy the time with u more.. nth else but u.

imy, its becoz ur alway in my mind
ily, its because u live deep inside my heart, and the addicted HB feeling.

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yippy~~ find myself like nth much to do so came over here to update =)

tuesday- woke up quiet late, wee and boon ask me go over to boon lay for some chilling and balling session at 619 court. went over and play some match without shoe in the end my toe being step for a few time, making me kinda angry till i played kinda serious. don caretoo =)

wanted to ask sylvia to come down, but then shes tired so didnt ask. in the end, went over to boon side eat ah lian econ beehoon and western.. wat i can say is the beef there sucks!omg..
after finishing our dinner or rather supper, we did our routine which is slack and chill out over at some random playgrd.. hahaha, kinda no life right. but i enjoy it=)

time past kinda fast i think, when we realise the time, its already 6am. boon and wee suggested we should go nearby court and played basketball. due to pure boredness, we started playing baskeball 6 in the eearly morning till 8am++. crazy right. but i like.

went over to wee's hse, while waiting for him to bath and change i fall aslp. but donno why, after wee came out for his bathe, he fall aslp on the sofa =_= hahaha we woke up at 12, took bus to sch for his fyp.. omg, when we reached sch neo then msg wee say its cancel.
so we meet bin bong and kaile over at town for k box.. but then before k box start, its time for girls shopping. hahah, i think me and wee must go gym and run regularly for in order to catch up the girls pace when we r in thailand.. =))
start k box ard 7++, was fun.. then thne then then then something happen that add-on to my fun, my everything hahah. =) sylvia came over and join us after her match. =)) sing tog with u guys really enjoyed.. must go again next time alright..
finish k ard 3, went over to some market for supper. after that send wee and sylvia home.. then went back slp.=))

overall conclusion for the day:ulterly happy

im totally crazy about u, u make my life colourful but not only black and white=) imy

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just feeling very down, just feel like finding a place with no one and shout it all out.

i know the time we know each other is short, but undeniable that is you give me the heart beating feel that i long lost and i like u.

maybe somehow in this, i worse than wee
he have stone, i don have.
he know her few years, i know here few days..
arg! i donno wat to do anymore.. damn lost damn sad damn no confident.

maybe i expect too much..

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nt really feeling good now, just waiting for something. in the end, i 've been waited for 9hs.. =(
just donno why, me and wee share the same fate i think? wat happen to him and what he's experiencing. im experiencing too. i kinda know how he feeling lo, feel sucks.

wherever my phone vibrate, my heart will beat fast. just hopiing the one who msg me, its u but nt others. i nvr have this feeling before, the feeling of misses someone that deeply or ever spending 9hs beside my phone just to wait you to reply me. ever since, i started to looknig forward every single msg send to my phone. If its u, i will smile deep from myheart. on the other hand, if its nt.. the feeling its really hard to describe.. sad, disappointed, worried, moody.. any word that can be use to describe when u are down. can use on me.

hock boon said he's touched by my action. but who knows=( maybe u can be touched, or rather i can be the joke of the day. i just cant hide the feeling and urge that i want to see u so much, just becoz imyT.T

emo and rainy days come back liao..

wee ar, i found a name for us... S&K can? i will tell u wats this mean soon=)
i donno i still need to wait for how many hs, im still waiting. till then, night peeps..

hi everyone, im here to update finally.. just a short update about wat i did this week=)

wed and friday went balling with the same clique with wee at cckcc and clementi cc. it was fun but tired.. friday after balling me and wee decided to meet hock boon for drinking session, so we headed down to holland v for drinking.

wee think that the cocktail wasn't enough for him to drunk, he asked the waiter whether is there anything stronger cocktail for us? in the end wat we got ourselves. damn u wee, a very strong cocktail called "earthquake" thats nt even inthe menu. (specially made for us by the boss) its fucking strong. wee said he feel a bit drunk after drinking that cup of cocktail.
well well well, a cup wasnt enough for us, we ordered a flaming lambo, waterfall, fustration for us.. after drinking, we went to nearby playground and slack.. lots of thing happen la. then headed home slp=)

sat- sentosa with kaile wee terry and sylvia=) fun fun fun, donno why the number of ppl like only 5, but still i enjoyed this trip alot. after sentosa, went cine for dinner , send sylvia home. me and wee went to meet hock boon slack at nearby playgrd. took nr5 home ard 4am and slp=)

sun- meet wee and hockboon for balling. dinner with wee hock boon and the ms maraton 42km finisher=) she came find us to eat. nice right. then slack awhile send herhome, once again, slack at play grd. wee went back first. due to some reason, slack with hockboon, play ball early in the morning and just reach home


theres so many things affecting me..
seriously, i think im just a joke and thrash.
im nt rich
im nt handsome
ive no good backgrd
im nt gd in studies

uselss right.

compare it? 1 high 1 low. obviously, im the low 1.
im lost my confident, or rather i don have any confident since the start..
not only im a joke, the thing i do its a joke too.
seriously, wat im expecting?
seriously, i hate myself
seriously, alouis lim be someone a bit useful can nt
seriously, alouis lim pls do something that have a bright future can?


wee ar wee, theory can be said easily. but what we feel inside cant be cover and convince easily but theory.. i fucking know what u are feeling inside. feel suck=( im so so so emo now. r u feeling the same as me now, wee?

i promise to myself, i will quit smoking and go for lesson.. i don wan be rotten ppl anymore, with no future ahead them. the every single thing i do, who know who understand?

emo emo emo emo emo emo.. i cant stop looking at my phone's dp. its jus simply becoz imy =(

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okay, hi readers im back~~~~~

yersterday, went NTU just for dinner with wee and hock boon. just because wee say he want to eat the shave ice over there, we went there for our dinner! in the end hock boon say, he want to shave his ball for me and wee to eat. =(( sadeed.. nvm
after dinner at NTU, my brother, kelvin lim, called and asked whether i want to kick soccer over at his place there. hesitate a bit due to my injured back, but then in the end me wee boon still train over to boon keng for soccer..

started ard 10pm, ended at 12am~~ bro send wee and boon home, went tanglin halt for supper, ta bao home and thats the end for my tuesday~ oh anyway, i hit my head on the goal pole when im chasing for the ball. i gt myself a big balugu aka lump on my forehead =_= how fucking sway and dumb i can be. think this few days, i rather unlcky when im in contact with sports, esp soccer. hahaha.. nvm.. =)) still handsome me > <

today woke up at 1030am, thx to ashleytan morning call for basketball session. in the edn!!!!!! when i reach ther, i gt to know shes sick and will skip this balling session when shejio me here. nvm~~ reach cck cc at 130, wee reach at 2+ i think. with zirong and her friends.. we play under the 'si bei hot' sun... until, 7+ i think? headed for dinner and suppose to watch movie with them. but in the end they change the venue so me and wee just tok bus home after dinner.


i want go oversea=(
tink postpone after christmas..

fri- outing with clique and and and mass pay
sat-sentosa again with peeps =)

okay, here im off again.. sayo~~