HAPPY BIRTHDAY cecilia THY! :)


OH, my dad ask me go work on his pub.
6days per week.
monthly basic 1k + alot alot of commission. should i?
but if i work this, sure affect my filming

i love this song.

i guess most of u hear this before..

lets clear our heart, relax and listen to this tog..

:(

sometimes just wondering...



alouis r u stupid or what,



there so many good girls ard u, but u just blindly go for the one that wont like u.. and let the good girls go..

but, if some other ppl in my shoe, i bet they will do the same thing too.. because, the want the real love that they hope for.. even though it wont end up good...

no matter how much my friends nag me or how many times i have to lie/hurt myself, i guess this is me.. the alouis that u all know



next one,

school.
i cannot deny that i missed school life.
i missed the fun in class,
the fun with my friends
the stressful time
and thing.
but what is done means done, theres not turning back.
if theres a chance again for me, i will study hard.
well well well



i cant see any future in me..
no girl, no sch( only have a O level cert. which can only get me no where), no money =_=
what else i can hope for..


im already 21.. yeap :)
alot ppl have already started on their career, or even family..
me?
nth..
yes nth
seriously nth
totally nth =_=


no stable job, no cert.. i wonder how im going to support my love ones in the future.
fuck my life seriously..
fuck it..
fucking regret..


im smart, yet im not using it wisely. how great....






maybe i should sign on..

i just want to settle down with a good life..
how i wish i can..










if only~

fianlly, after dragging so long, its over..
i did so much,
happen for so long,

in the end.. im still not accepted by you

this time round, when told me ur final decision, its strange that my heart didnt hurt much.
maybe its too numb
or what.
i donno

sad will sad, but im also happy that it comes to the end.
not something i wanted and wished for.

still wanted to thank you for the memories u gave me,
ofcourse we r still friend.
and i wil still be there for you when u need me.

TST

smile always:)






im looking for a better job,
i want more filming
i want someone who love and cherish me. LOL

to forget and heal..




im hungry, from no where. fuck


update again next time. bye peeps

finally, tcp starting to flim 'Intangiable bond'. im one of the cast who kicking off for the show. but end result for me is quite disappointing la. its not my best yet, so still trying to adapt the feel.

busy with fliming but no work..im serious broke. damn

i really donno what else to write over here. okay then. bye

i dont feel good.
as if my heart gonna explode..


:(


its aching