sometimes just wondering...



alouis r u stupid or what,



there so many good girls ard u, but u just blindly go for the one that wont like u.. and let the good girls go..

but, if some other ppl in my shoe, i bet they will do the same thing too.. because, the want the real love that they hope for.. even though it wont end up good...

no matter how much my friends nag me or how many times i have to lie/hurt myself, i guess this is me.. the alouis that u all know



next one,

school.
i cannot deny that i missed school life.
i missed the fun in class,
the fun with my friends
the stressful time
and thing.
but what is done means done, theres not turning back.
if theres a chance again for me, i will study hard.
well well well



i cant see any future in me..
no girl, no sch( only have a O level cert. which can only get me no where), no money =_=
what else i can hope for..


im already 21.. yeap :)
alot ppl have already started on their career, or even family..
me?
nth..
yes nth
seriously nth
totally nth =_=


no stable job, no cert.. i wonder how im going to support my love ones in the future.
fuck my life seriously..
fuck it..
fucking regret..


im smart, yet im not using it wisely. how great....






maybe i should sign on..

i just want to settle down with a good life..
how i wish i can..










if only~