hi readers, its late at night yet im still not slping over here. huh? u ask me why im still haven slp at this hour? oh, its because i woke up 8+ in the night yesterday. > < u cant blame me for this, trainng was cancel due to the heavy rain in the afternoon. well, i kinda hate the weather recently. It just spoil my training mood and all of my plans, esp my training days and sentosa. think my captains ball team will feel the same as me right=)

speaking of my training, just feel that im in the low-confident level now. i cant deny that my team player is full of good players, but i just feel that im deproving instead of improve. it just make me wanna perform more. the more i wan perform the more mistake i will make. when mistakes come to take over your head, all in ur mind will be hesitation just becasue you are scare of making for mistakes again. thats where im in now. i cant shoot well, i cant pass well , i cant pass ppl anymore.
still rmb last week of training, we r having 5on5 full court. my team was behind the leading team by 1 point. 18-19... to win the game, either side have to score 21 point. i took the ball with an open chance to shoot a 3-pointer. i shoot it and missed it, and the other team took the rebound and had the 2point in. they won the game. one of my teammate that on the opp team said to me: out of the 5 players in ur team, theres 3 person that can shoot 3 point, but i dont think u r 1 of them...
that word strike my head and heart real hard.. even bring my confident lower.
i cant find any more power and motivation for me to overcome the bad situation. who can give me advice on this? who and hw can help me to open this locked door in my heart to lead me a better future? im totally lost..... and im trying so hard..

anyway, change topic ba... after so long, its so strange that u came back into my dream.. it make me miss u somehow....

what is true love? what is love in first sight? what is long lasting love? can this 3 ever happen in one at once?
is love only lasted for month called true love? or its just too rush?
can love in first sight be trust?

i just cant trust love anymore=)
reasons? maybe my heart already numb from all sort of thing..
what can heal my heart? time? someone? i seriously don't know.

okay peeps, blogged nt much but enjoy reading k =) next time when i have the mood to blog again i will be here=) till then~~~ take care.

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