sometimes, the more pain u get, the lesser pain u will feel. this time round, im surpised that most of the time i can feel so calm or whatever. maybe this theory work on me? i finally know whats the word 'numb' just because im feeling it right now i think.
i don't know what to do what to say what to think anymore. just hope i will get over this real soon..

anyway, happy new year to everyone! my new yr celebration was fine. didnt go alot of hse to bai nian, instead i have been rotting either at home waiting for ppl come to bai nian,go over to my brother hse bai nian cum mj session , go over to my relative hse bai nian or go to friend's hse for mj session again. gamble and taking ang bao is always me and my brother trend for new yr. =D

my back is turning worse i think. im lying down yet i can feel the pain too =_= how im gonna sign on in this state. =(

my dad say wanna help me intro that girl that being my eye candy for 3yrs to me. =)) hope can sia, shes really pretty. still rmb 3yrs ago, helping my dad send something over to their hse, im already attract by her. every yr just hoping can go their hse see her face nia. nt bad nt bad =)

alright peeps, nth much to update. i wanan go download new songs for myself to listen~ bye!!

hi all, finally update time. soon my blog will have spider web if i don't update. hahah, okay theres a few thing i wanna update today. work ,you ,thailand trip and bd celebration.

firsly thailand trip photo(few) will update on next post=)

secondly you, i'm feeling quite disappointed in u already. if thats the way, nth much i could do but good luck to u and watever. im tired...

thirdly work.. today went over to SK car washing to work with wee. since long i feel the real tiredness within me. its like omg feeling, tml im gonna work alone =(( damn sad. when working today, i can feel my back muscle is pulling to the max extent le.. like gonna injured anytime.. sian. i really don't want to injure my back anymore le. shall take good care of it le=)

lastly, today after work, cab down to the cathay with wee to meet up with the thailand trip clique. supposingly, to cheryl its only a dinner gathering for all of us,but we prepared a bd prsent to her. i still own they the present money=( i need work! okay nvm.. meet up at 7+pm at cathey, went to sushi hse for dinner. eat really lot, meanwhile when we still eating, des and fel say they want go toilet but actually they're going over to get cake for cheryl. she's the bd girl on tues! but due to tiredness, we didnt manage to celebrate on that day. okay, we managed to surprise her la and sang her bd song! next, cheryl fetch me and wee home=) thx cheryl! happy birthday ar.

im tired!! slping real soon.. night guys. enjoy the pics

Finally. the last day of my first ever thailand trip.. =) i enjoyed the time with them over here( wee kaile bin desmond edmond cheryl bong) , very fun. although very tired, the girls just cant stop shoppoing over here. hahaha, we can start shopping at 10am and ends it at 2-3am.. kinda scary right. looked at the thing all of us brought its even talling than me in the height.. you can just imagine how scary it is.. hahahah.
anyway, now we're waiting for the girls to come back, that why i can come here and blog a little thing happen here. feel like staying here few more days but im cashless. sadeded..

will be coming back today. think will reach sg ard 12am... so yea, see you all soon!

i miss you but yet,
i feel the hurt,
from u again....
im wondering
who u miss
who u like
but if thats the case
i wish u happy from my heart
and leave ur world completely..
last but nt least
i love u

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yawn, later going thailand le yet im still nt aslp. kinda excited for the trip later. not i mountain turtle or wat, but this is the first time im gonna take plane and going overseas (except for malaysia) .. so yea! virgin visit oversea and plane..

so peeps, dont miss me alright=)) i will be back by monday midnight.. just msg me, i will reply u if im free over there=)

its kinda hard that keeping feeling inside and not telling anyone about it..
i still like u
i still miss u
but, theres' nth i could do anymore. guess, im silently, leaving ur world.
will u still be there when im open my eye every morning? im kinda sad when we become litat. anyway, this is fate.. we chose this path and theres nth we could regret of... just, if future theres chance.. pls, give it to me.. i just wan to be the one, who be there for u. forever.

anyway, im thinking of my future now. this is the first time im thinking so hard for my future. should i sign on army/air force? i really need advise for this.. emm..

should stop emo-ing and enjoy myself over there with my best friends. tc peeps...
esp u, take care

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im sick.. lovesick, hurtsick...... basically, im sick of everything i have in my life... my heart now is very luan.. everyday single day im thnking why this will happen to us even i thot at least our friendship will last... i really sick of acting okay and perfectly fine infront of anyone le.
no one, just no one really understand how much pain i have inside my heart.. if i have a more chance, just one more.. i will keep that feeling inside me, forever.. =(
just hate it, think tonight will be an emo-est day for me le.

anyway, just woke up nt long from my slp. ytd need wee and boon at 10+PM for basketball session nearby my hse. play from 11+ to 2+am.. then go mac slack a while and ate breakfast over there. played fishing with boon, he lose me 40+ push up.. song...! but damnit, in the end i lost him more than 150+push up.. did 100 but still owe him 70.. =( went back to ball again till 12+pm then home swee home.. bath and sleep till now, wake up with aching muscle..

finally, i borrow a guitar from ben, the nsman. =x can train my guitar le..

friday im leaving to thailand le, looking forward.~~

andandand, im really in need of cash.. anyone have any job to intro me wee and boon. any job =( pls~~~

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always say im been in bad luck since i step in yr2009, but now think, actally im kinda lucky enough to meet my 2 brother wee and boon.in my lowest point they pull me up, when im sad they cheer me up. thx alot..

ytd went to ntu to watch ivp with boon and wee and syl. after match go eat at mac till 4am. then slack at the playgrd downstair boon's hse. thx to them, they cheer me up and brain wash me. thinking back for wat they told me. i now realised, im a "lan ren", meaning a lousy guy who achive nth in my life.
why affect so much by a girl?
im litat since long ago, always spoil my life for a girl. its time to reflect myself and get a change. i don wan to be useless anymore. maybe when i change i will be more attractive?
alouis, wake up pls. don make ppl ard u worry le.
thx bro, i wll try my best to change to a better man.

today went to watch ivp also.
im just totally disappointed today, aint our frenship that nt important to u? really sad when i didnt receive any reply from u. i cant blame anyone, its all my fault that i started this. im sry

okay, im going thailand soon. anyone wan buy thing from bankok can ask me buy for them..

if this is retribution for what i had done in the past, pls just come all in once. if this pain come serperately, its really hurt... pls god, just let me pain that 1 time only...

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although i have nth to update about, but just feeling very bored now, so yea..
this few day i don have much appetite, 3days only 1meal +5donut. if she didnt get me donut i also donno i wil eat today not.
still wanna say thx to her for having the heart to get me donut. it does cheer me up that a little...


i didnt dream of u anymore since that day, kinda sad for me right.. emm
anyway, im looking for a part/full time job, ppl that reading my blog if have any lobang pls intro me alright...
i want go slp now le, the thing i wish and i hope for only will appear in my dream.. everynight i slp, only looking forward that i can at least see u in my dream. =(((
night guys

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i hate the feeling now.. =((
can i just leave this world, to some place where no love exist.. only my brother..
one sided love its very hard for the one to get hold, after hearing those word from u, its hurtful inside. i like u its a fact that wont change, even u said those word to chase me away, i wont leave. maybe thing wont be like the same anymore, but still, i like u alot. maybe u wont accept me, but still can i be there for u to do those silly thing like the same?

i don need anyone now, just need someone to stop my tears now.

2009 just nt my year

yawnzzzz, didnt manage to refill my enengy today.. only slept for 10h? >< woke up at 6pm+ , bathe and prepare. went over to boonlay to meet wee and boon for zichar dinner at 900+ there. eat curry chicken and other dishes. after dinner, went over the court downstair boon's hse and play till 10+. some retarded indian lady came over to the court and scolded us, threaten us that she wan to call police. i looked at the time of my phone, its only 1020. for that R.I.L, only have 1 ending for her, kena kan back by us.. lol.. kinda funny la. bus home with wee after that..

love its just like a 2 edge knife, once u nvr handle carefully, u will hurt urself.
but now, im just feel happy.. days past, i can feel that my love towards u its getting larger. i can just miss u every min when i don see u.. guess im addicted to u, would u let me see the u that im addict to?

everyone can dream of anything they want/like/love/miss, but did u ever dream of a certain ppl/thing for 5days in a row? im quite surprise for me to dream of u that often. 5days in a row its a very hard thing to do. can see that u're very into my life&heart now.
stay on and don leave girl. i donno whether im inside ur heart, but i can promise that u will nvr leave my heart.

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new year new start.. but for me wee hock boon and hb's charbo, it wasnt a good start for us.. nvm.. will talk about it later.. my previous update was about 25th dec... so i wil start update from 26th=))

26th- morning, went over to boonlay meet hockboon for my hair cut.. just feel that my hair like quite messy and sibei thick.. so just decide to cut it. boon intro me to one salon over at hong kar there. $18 for wash+cut.. nt bad thou, in future can go there cut le.
after hair cut went over to nearby coffee shop eat our lunch while waiting for wee to finish his fyp and come over to meet us. wee reach ard 1+, went over to 619 play ball as usual till night. ard 7-8+ syl came down to join us for balling, but frday so called soccer day for those soccer player, so we went over to park to play. after balling camwhore and dinner then send her home

this day is the most happy day i had before because i gt a x'mas present from her! thx girl=)

27th-supposingly going for camping with syl wee and boon.. but boon cannot make it.. so change plan to guitar learning lesson. syl teach us how to play guitar and im addicted to it. i wanna learn more from her=)) some chill and stupid game by us, send her home and home sweet home=)

28th- also, suppose to meet go out with wee hb and syl. in the end, boon again, he cannot make it.. so the outing was cancel.. just sad for me.. stay at home and rest for the whole day.

know something from her that make me feel so loved.. although u keep saying those thing, but to me, i say i wil wait mean i will. no matter how long it takes.... it doesnt matter to me. just becoz, my heart for u its real and pure... ily
thanks girl

29th-meet syl and wee for lunch over at tiong plaza.. ate steamboat buffet.. quite nice la, after that nth to do. feel like playing ball, so we headed over to lkcc for bball session. wasnt on form that day. just donno why, my confident lvl is getting very low.. omg.. acc wee till 11pm, send her home. and gt myself missed th last train and last bus.. the worst thing is no cash with me. wat to do, don wan to trouble anyone.. so i decided to walk home from boon lay to commonwealth. this journey took me 4hrs to reach home. its ard 21km? this will be the first and last for me to do this. and im sry to make u wry girl, thx for acc me till i reach home when u're so tired. =)

30th-meet wee at boon keng control for soccer session with my brother,kelvin lim, and his friends. bro send me and wee home. thx bro

31st-sry ben wee, ps u all for kage soccer session. next time will play with u all k. she need my accompany. im sry=( meet her at boon lay, she wanted to get her fbt singlet. pioneer mall don have the clean piece she want, so we cab down to queensway shopping center, got the new piece she want and eat her fav curry chicken then send her to outram station.
went home to change and meet wee and ben at city hall. bring them over to my grandma side countdown party. till ard 12am+~~ slack all the way till 2+am, meet boon and his girl. wanted to watch movie at cine. in the end, no cab for us to travel there =( we waited the cab for 4hrs, in the end all gt tired and train home..

thinking whether she enjoyed herself or nt but just miss her alot alot. waiting for her sms to come=((

2008 is over, but im glad i met boon wee kl and bin to make my 2008 so wonderful=)
theres a special person that make my close to end 2008 full of hope and love, that is U =) thx girl

hope my 2009 will be a smooth, lucky, healthy and full of love year=D
love the ppl ard me..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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