now currently at ben's room. just finish our mj session. guess my luck wasnt with me again. for donno how long, im always the losing side. hate the feeling when losing... kinda angry when playing ba. donno why also.. maybe recently my mood nt good i think...

lying on the floor, suddenly think of her... few months ago, during the camp.. during every outing.. we was stil so sweet and fine.. but look at now, u really change alot, nt the way of being mature.. u change heart.. very obvious didnt it. im very sure this is nt the way of being mature..
its breaking my heart picecs to picecs..

im telling myself, alouis don care about her le.. what u r doing, she feel meh. no matter wat u do, she don care.. she really don care.. but, when i see her online, i start to softheart again.. ask her wat shes doing. and care about her.. im really stupid.. to the extent that, nth can helps.

alouis. u sucks.
alouis u r hopeless.
=((

why shes enjoying her life. but here im suffering. no 1 really noe how much im hurt inside. T.T