im been reflecting on my character all these while... since last time, i know wat i wan, i know what is needed for me, what im been hoping for in my heart.. just im a sore loser that don wish to face all the obstacles standing infront of me..

basketball is all my passion since long ago, been in over confident and sort.. i thought i can do well in poly.. been training so hard, so wish that i can represent rp to play for polite and ivp but not small competition.. in my heart i know if i really train hard, i can do it.. im been dreaming, i will be the top player, and all other thing. just becoz of failure and failure. i give up.. telling myself why get so tired when u can enjoy ur poly life well.
oh well, i regreted..

knowing u is all i wan, loving u is all i wan.. needed u in my life... i hold u tight but once again i fail myself.. scolding myself, alouis lim! why you are so stupid that cant even endure ? she is the best for u, why will let thing turn into this way? its this wat u wan? quarrel and quarrel.. are u that childish that cant even give in to watever she do? she don wan come back to you becoz u still nt the best for her yet.. fuck u alouis, be a man.. don give up le.. don ever let urself down and regreting over there when she's standing infront of u..
maybe recently im been telling u, for all the thing u did, did u ever treat me there or even feel for me? maybe i can ask myself this Q too. i know myself sometime, being a loser that blame u on everything. saying, ask him to peggy back u lo, go find him lo etcetc. things see in my eye, heart hurt.. the hurt is more on why im so uselesss? letting other ppl do those to u instead on me?

girl, i know u have no faith, no trust in me.. i just hope, u will trust me 1 more time. helping me overcome everything. i just need u by my side, i will become a better alouis. just for u... becoz

i love u.. nth else..

after ytd night, i just wished to hug u more and tighter, nvr ever let u go and slip through my hand again.. be my support and motivation again, will u? =((