okay, let blog about some happy stuff and a little of emo stuff..

firsly, RP won today's match against kai xuan. as usual, i bench for the whole match. but this time round, even i was bench, but i feel happy for the team. they played happily and as a team. a few mistakes that shouldnt be happen. but still theres room for improve. jy rp. go as a team, win as a team and lose as a team. i will work hard too, so that 1day i can contribute too :)

hai, i donno why. this few day my heart is so tight. sometime, tight till i just feel like crying out. i don feel gd. i don feel well. just wish u can be there. r u drifting apart? why i feel that ur so far from me. so far so far. things happen, we hurt each other. i nvr meant to hurt u. nvr has this thought b4. :( if drifting apart is our fate. i just wish, b4 drifting part we have mre time tog. =(

hai, the more i say the tight feeling i have is getting tighter. i just wish wish to get away those feeling. wish there's thing to make me happy, make me cheer up happen.

i miss u=(

firstly blog about PL cup first.. haha

tuesday play aginst wayn nan, we can win de. but rp tradition come again..lost during last quarter.. but gd game guy..

thursday play vs hong yuan's team, PL1. haha. lost dao no underwear.. haha.. i gt to play for few min. thx ning and wayne. team, although once again i disappointed u all. but i promise i will train for better. i will. i will..

today went to play ball at yuhua and 108. aha fun la.. but i scare. scare alot.. my left ankle cant take 1 more injury le. i wan to play ball forever. just waiting for my ankle to recover.

hai, im really sick this few day. today, im damn sad. do u all sometime will sad till ur illness get ever more serious? yea, i did. today my cough is getting serious le. i eat le, cough till vomit. and i gt fever le. really not feeling very well. hai.

if my existant is just making u sad i will leave quietly.
*crying is the only way of letting out my sadness now='(*
just need someone to rely on.
can u just at my side with me now? i need u

my heart is still aching. alot.... hurt, pain. undescribable. tired, sick. is all i can say now. i noe myself aint that attractive enough for people to fall for me. compare to last time, i've change alot. speaking of appreance and character. just only hope someone will love me for who im.

no more le ba. i can sense we drifting le. nt like last time le.. is this baoyin?
for wat i treat ppl last time. all come to me in one shot. i know my mistake le, why im still treating in this way and facing all the rubbish.

serious here, im sry for what i've done in the past. pls, don let me taste of this anymore le. pls.. is hurtful.. =(

maybe is my fault to put in so much hope, hai. donno la. im lost anyway.

thx for those who concern me. thx alot. u all r true fren..

useless me~

Labels: love is so hurtful at times

its so hurt, its so pain. i cant stop my heart from crying.
who can stop my pain
who can stop me from hurting
who can stop my tears
who can bring smile to me.

=(

life sux,
school sux
i sux.

who will noe how im feeling now? the impact im having now, its too huge for me to take on, to hold on. im collasp anytime, anymoment. pls, someone hold on to me pls. =(

after doing so much and go through so much things... only 1 thing wanna say..

and this apply to everone....

cherish for what you have now, don ever wait till u lost it then regret.

human r always litat, don cherish thing when they have it. wait till it slip though ur hand then regret. gt use? some things is just like water. u can scoop water with 2hand and hold it there. but how long exactly you can hold on to the water. water will go by the holes of ur hands. if you don do anything to it, just one day all the water will gone. you can take other water agian, but isit the same water? no, is diff.. it will nvr be the same agian.. nvr

later match vs hai xin. my ankle injure, but i still wan to play. with no regret... hope my injuries wont affect me later. luck to rp, lets go to semi tog ba. let go rp.

if missing a person can bring a huge impact like u say. so, the impact im having now comfirm is infinity. =(

hey readers, im back. miss me? hahaha. don't say don have, here im to update my life to you all. haha

sat- RP have their first match for PLcup.. agianst PL2. a young team under pl-kovan cc. joshan playing for them. lucky he no form that day. haha. i played for 2 half quarter. nt bad =) personally feel that i played quite well. wan to defence then attack. so score 2point only. haha play half way, ning shouted to me: alouis don defence and screen only, show out ur attack shi li.. haha.then i was thinking, when did i have jing gong shi li sia.. ahha. lol!!~~~ but rp played welled. but nt wel enough. can do better.. if we played like how we played in the first match on wed. we sure tio tok by tech kee.. jy everyone.. jy rp.. i hope to play better mroe to improve more to go. for u, for rp, for me.

girl when to malaysia since friday, i feel so lonely la. sometime when she sms me or call me.. i feel so happy. =) shes back today le. yea!!! talked to her, maple with her. i just wan spend more time with her.. haha.=x

holidays over le.. kan sian. have to go sch again le. =( scare cant wake up.. haha
wed is rp second match, supporters pls come down to kovan cc, located at kovan. walked from mrt can reach le.. heehee. =)=)

this song is seb intro me de. he say this song really suit me well la. i listen and i think is quite true la. really describe how i think and feel in my heart.. and is a nice song also :) just stop for a few min to listen finsih ba :)

bb everyone.. sayo~~~
no one can enter my heart agian when ur there. :)

okay im rotting like hell now. acc her to eat her lunch at 4. she go back to work ard 5.. hha, siince then, im rotting at mac till now la.. 2 more hours to go.. haha very fast de. but my back is aching.. haha. im bored enough so i come here to blog about thing i have told u all and update some pic.. haha....

sad stuff- nth much happen to me la. just something have a very hard impact on me.don wan say much about this. just hope its will gone fast. haha

happy stuff- kan, finally i gt the chance of waering rp jersey agian.. haha.. PL cup, i gt to play. vin say me take number12.. but i asking him i can take 13 or 18 ma.. ahha.. he say he should consider.. waha.. =X people pls come down to kovan cc on sat 530 to support me.. nono, support rp.. haha :) just hope we will do well this time.. although our opps this time is very strong, but we aint weak too.. rp wil have a very tougf fight.haha just do our best la..

girl- there so much i wanted to tell u but i just cant put into words. no more impact le hao ma? i don wish to lose u. maybe i asked for too much.. maybe i don.. i seriously donno wat i want and wat i hoping for.. im so lost sometime. i just wish u can guard me out.. can u?

i have no idea wat to blog.. emm. no mood to blog? don wan to blog? or nth to blog? i donno.

friday, mr/ms sit start le. have to start on stage sia. damn ps. i really feel nervous and ps, but by wearing the necklace she bought for me, make me feel a bit safe? haha. just calm down abit ba. actually going this just extra nia la. all people noe who will win le. our dear captain, aka siao cao aka mr sit~~ phua hong yuan.~` hah. he sure win de la.. hee.. ms sit is tracy. her supporter jitao nt many.. haha..
thx thos who voted for me.. haha. pp vote for me 2 lei.. nt bad. haha. thx..

sat go libary and watch triangle with evon seb wayne yy and her bf. boring day..

sun actually wanna go sentosa de. im so looking forward la.. but i overslept. sob.. im damn sad!! kao.. hai.. i wan go sentosa so much la..

tml actually another day that i looking forward too. but not anymore. =( haha.. no la. the date is postpone.. haha. i wan go out with her more. =x just simply miss her every min every sec. haha. she sure slp like pig now de. haha. silly girll.. don anyhow think la, we r nt drifting la.. why anyhow think sia.. damn silly.. <3

blog till here. nth to blog le..
sayo

Labels: fuking moodswing

im totally lost... totally feel so down. i was about to gain my confident back. but i go down again..
my role is a forward today. tell me, a forward who is so empty that defender is so far from him. should he that the shot? when the center is ready?? tell me..
when a forward gt confident can cut through him, he shouldnt do it ar.. even i should pass, u all see show? then i pass miss u all then say me. lai, u all be forward. i don support u see what u do. empty shoot wrong. cut guo le empty shoot also wrong. smlj. if the person playing isnt me, doubt u all will say anything? just becoz of this i cried. smlj... im stupid.. stupid enough..

hai.. so near yet so far.
alouis is
1)ugly
2)unwanted
3) skinny
4) no fashion
5)emo
6)lost his smile

wat else can make me real happy again? nth le ba. hai.. so long nvr feel so fuking emo le. who really noe my side behind the fake laughter. no1.
im all alone..

tml gt mr sit thing. i don feel like going. no mood . nth..

love is either give in or take in. im always the one who give in. knowing that wont get an thing in return. thats me. the more u give in, hte hurt u will get back is alot of times.

know how im feeling for everything. i mean everything.=(