i'm nt happy!! im nt happy =( so down, feel so down. hais

i feel so emo, think nvr feel in this way le since......... i put in alot effort, but in the end?? ppl who don come regular for training yet they get thing which they don deserve =(
chose 15ppl out of 16ppl, sound high chance right.. but sry hoz.. im the 1 who left out. when i know, i jitao no mood train. seriously, i just feel that im wasting my time for all these. endure for training? endure simi lanjiao, tell me.. 2yrs le, endure for 2 fuking yrs. what i get in return, zero confident and alot of exp being of cheer leader. u all say, u all have friendly, training or matches. which day im nt there. 100% loyalty for the team, yet im nt appericiate. except for ting yang, darren, desmond,vincent, hong yuan, ning, boon, zh and wayne.. who dare say they come for basketball thing more then me? where r u all when the team need u all? where r u all when we having tough training. ooh, i know le. during the fuking friendly and team selection then i saw u all.. fuk it even seb come mroe training then u all k. smlj..
if u all really wan to be in the team, come training. if u all really wan to win the match, show me. nt when lose le, sit at there all face black dao majiam my fuking shit. seriously, did u all wan rp to win or u all wan rp to be food..
i seriously wan rp to be famous, want rp to win.. hai, who really understand how im feeling.. i don to be a sub anymore. ppl go toilet i go in cham 1leg, come back le. ooh alouis u can go out le. nice hoz.
desmond thinking of quitting? sry hoz, me too. my mind now is full of quitting. maybe is just like melvin say. play for lessure. have mroe fun and more ppl regonise. _l_

I MISS YOU :( im happy for what we r now, just don dare to hope for more. im ur recyle bin, throw everything to me i don mind. let write a new story tog. .