somehow, i feel the pain within me.

2011-12-20T08:43:00.002+08:00

good morning to everyone:)

all my coy mate doing their routemarch now and here i am in my office writing blog.

TCP party was fun with all of my TCPians, did happened a few incident. was really funny! HAHA!

the legendary carebear accident and music! should not say much about this! teehee ^^

just relised my weight increased to 90kg! damnit! i should really go gym and continue my run rountine. other wise i will hit 100kg soon! :(

bookout tmr! and it will be the last workday for this year!
5more months to ORD! :)

kthxbye!

sign off:
fat fat alouis:)

2011-12-17T04:39:00.003+08:00

Recently, after watching 'Dream high' i'm totally in love with IU. Don't you guys think that she SUPER CUTE and HOT????! And her vocal is super nice too!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_iQRO5BdCM can go watch it! her new song, 'You and I'
heee <3
melt totally.. Teehee!

just back home and here im! here blogging... went to Adele's 21st birthday celebration with TCP peeps. Happy birthday adele! :) hope u did enjoyed ur day just now! and i saw SGT Jing Wen over there! this world is way too small, he know adele too! fun to catch up with him too..

after celebration, yong ming fetch us to holland and chill with us awhile. talk a little cock here and there. left me, kenneth, ah jie, sean and adria. chill till 4+..

tmr will be TCP's christmas party! its my 3rd one thou.. hope it will be fun! :)

kkkk! gonna zzzz! gd night~!

sign off:
alouis:)

hi im back blogging!

2011-12-14T04:51:00.002+08:00

well, its being days since i last blogged! WOW, im back blogging now! At least, when i have something to say, i have a place for me to vent it out.

5 and a half more months to ORD, its kinda fast for the time to pass. i have being thinking quite a few times, what i shall do after i ORD? Study? working? Actually i don't even know it myself. i feel like continue on the road of acting. i might not be that good, but i have the passion for this field of thingy.

kind of decided when my friends ask why i dont want to go mediacorp. i told them the reason i dont want its becasue i want to help TCP become bigger and stronger! aiseh right! when sean see this, he sure will say ankar sio!

TCP its one of the most important thing in my life now, it brings me alot of thing which i desired. Friendships, Family and my Dream!
TY kaile for bringing me in.
ty sean, des, ym, ws and tham for giving me so many chances.
ty myself for acting so well and improve! HAHA!

its being 1 and a half yrs, and i still cant able to forget u. i wonder whats the reason. When my grandma asked: "why didnt bring gf back already?" i dont know how to answer that, or even myself dont even know the answer. i had been telling myself to move on, but the speed of me moving on is too slow for me to forget u fully. wondering are u doing good now, did samuel treat u gd or did u lost ur smile u have?
theres too many thing reminds me of you........ kinda hurts yo!

and fucking hell, during this 1 and a half yr of NS life, i gained 'N' kg?????!!! omg. im so fat now, seriously. my tummy jitao last warning already. im not the confident alouis in the past anymore, kind of lost it somewhere, somehow. i dont even have the determination to slim down.. goshhh, whats happening to meeeeee???!
:(

sign off,
the fat alouis

2010-08-09T04:33:00.002+08:00

kinda lazy to blog ever since i enter army.
so i know now my blog is like a dead town. haha! bobian la. sry man.

army not that bad thou, training and all the stuff. meeting different kind of ppl inside, it does change something about me.

2 more months to POP.
faster pass pls. ty so much! hahah

yea, i donno if im stupid or dumb. but ya, till now im still thinking about u alot. i donno if u will come to my blog, im still waiting for u. but i know, its hopeless. i just want you you to be happy and smile like how u did in the past. if u did, im glad. pls take care..... my heart is still with u. for the meanwhile, smile

2010-06-27T16:34:00.001+08:00

2010-06-27T16:22:00.002+08:00

lets update some meet up for this 2 weekend. haha!

last week end... which was my first bookout after i enlist.
my dear bros,
sean and kenneth,
came over to pasir ris to pick me up:)

was very happy to see them.
went over to changi airport for dinner at xinwang.
then slack awhile.
ken drove us to ecp.
bowl and slack at carl's jr. haha
was rather sad that day too becoz like suddenly thought of her. well..

but time with sean and ken was always enjoyable and relax. :)
miss u guys.

home ard 4am..

woke up
2pm,
changed and went to town.
met jon elaine runliang and kengboon.
had duck rice for lunch. then suddenly had the idea of playing mj. so we called zy and asked him whether his hse can mj not. haha.
played pool before went over to ziyang's hse.
started playing ard 11pm. went home at 7am.
and then.....~~~~

book in day :(
reach inter at 6pm. took bus and ferry back to my second home, tekong...

this weekend~~~
friday, after bookout, took cab straight to kb's hse for mj again.
home ard 7am.

then woke up ard 5pm.
went over town.
met that siao eh.
sophia lin!
hahah had billy bombers. nice cookies and cream(Y)
then slack ard before our movie started.
watched "knight and day"
rated, 3.5/5 stars

after movie share cab with ru and home:)

okay short update.
im gonna book in at 7pm.

next post photo..

2010-06-27T15:09:00.002+08:00

hey guys..
sry man, army too busy for me to update my blog le. haha, i know theres alot ppl missed me alot. :) i miss u guys too.

cypher cliques,
tcp peeps,
rpians.
theres alot more.

emm, army wasnt that bad afterall. alot of my friend said i become bigger size.
so ya..
alot things happened this 3 weeks when i enlisted.
yes, someone left me.
my bunkmate's mum passaway.,
tio tekan gao gao. okay la
jaguar coy, very nice and good coy. enjoying the time there. the training and etc.

oh anw, i gained weight inside. now im 83kg. ahhaha! shit to the core la! hahaha
i need to train more.
tmr will be the 2nd ippt test. those who nvr acheive at least a pass , need to stay back for RT on sat morning. :(
gg max.

yeap, the decision u made, affected me alot. when i said something, i mean it.
you are really selfish, to only care about how u felt but not mine. quite disappointed in u.
i had been doing the things u want, and neglect my own feeling and thought. but what did u gave me? all sort of shit things.
yeap, for ur own good. if u are reading this, pls learn from all this that had happen between us and dont do it again. because, i know this feeling really sucks.
even when im typing all this, let me tell u, im really sad. but what can i do, nth.
but i think,u wont be reading what im writing here too. because u dont really care anymore.
if u really think of S so much, i wish that hes the right one for u.

I still remember every little things you said. I can't wash away th sight of your face from my mind,your cute voice.You are my sweetest gift from God, yet I can't help feeling helpless. This pain shall go on, till th moment I end this affection. You mattered so much t me, every tear I drop for you is worthy. Please, ...put yourself in my shoes. I am tough, I am strong, but in me still thumps the heart of a weakling's.

:(

2010-05-18T00:27:00.001+08:00

2010-05-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

yo im back to update.
time past damn fast, majiam f1 racing. now i only left with 16laps to go. :(
aww, i know theres alot ppl who will miss my kpkb-ness, my aiyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu, my love care adn concern. hahaha!
my friend asked me, eh alouis don sad la! army only.
seriously, im not sad at all. the only thing i concern about is about not spending enough time with them. hahha!

TCP time:)
do u guys know, TCP is on newspaper again:)
im really happy for sean.
hes the one who built this from nth.
and the cast and crew who worked hard for this.
im proud to be part of tcp:)
anyway, this is the X-squad NG video:) enjoy urself

i miss u badly
yes u

2010-05-05T04:03:00.003+08:00

34 days left, sun- had filming with sean ken and sy. after filming went for lunch, after that went bugis meet sihui ju and mms.. waited for them to finish their things, went over to haji lane. saw bin. aftew that, cab over to town for dinner and douhua..
pub with them also. sing and drink. :D

then cab home slp.
anyway, thx for the candy:D
<3

33th- went nafa for trying outfit. then train to woodland meet jon and kb for movie.
caught iron man2.
was an awesome movie, quite funny too:D
then walk to sch for main com meeting.
after meeting, had dinner at kpt. then train home.

well,
32th- slack at home:D

1 more day left for my bd,
somehow, i wish that u will be there for me.
i somehow, look forward to see u appear during my bd..
but still, i scare what i look forward for, wont happen.

i miss u.
alright. night

31days left for army

2010-05-02T02:27:00.002+08:00

yawn just wake up from a nap..
hahah nice only

anyway theres someone getting me toshiba adaptor as my bd present!! :) (L) hahahaa
happy only:)

sometime i wonder are u too busy to reply me?
or just purely dont feel like. hahahhahahaha

2010-05-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

my 36th counting down days- i give it to cypher again(cheemun, boonguan, fj, jerry, kb, jon, zy,st, cheryl) , wanted to go watch ironman2 or ipman2. but we only left with teh first row seats. oh my:( so after short discussions, we went to yishun ( really yishun not playing with jerry name) hahahaha! for dinner!
its really cool and funny la :) the closer im with them, the more i dont bear to enlist. oh well

35th day- had filming in the morning.
oh ya i had my first bd celebration, from tcp. its really shocking la.
adele eunice kenneth adria des teckguan chin teck yitong shawn willy chinyang sy weilong and kaile
thx so much.
from this list, i smell something fishy! because i cant see someone's name here.
yeap, own up pls:)
thx so much, i love u guys.i love tcp:)

after filming cum celebration, went home straight(thx wl for the ride)
chill awhile, met cypher clique. went pam's grandma funeral. cheer up k bestfriend:)
and im home:)

like a happening only.
34more days, hope morethings will happen

love u guys:)

alright bye!

2010-04-30T00:11:00.002+08:00

yes fucked up day! i need to buy a new TOSHIBA adaptor because my mum just step on it, and spoiled.. cb, fucking dulan u know.
knnbccb

38days
okay ytd met kb and st at woodland.
had lunch with kb, st and hweeling came after that.sihui amelia and joanne look for us awhile

slack till after sch, had main com interview. was rather funny.
went kpt for dinner. then home
37thdays
today suppose to go sch also. but i was too sick to get up, so i missed it.
slp for 18hrs and feel better now.
but still im fucking pissed!

any kind soul can lent me adaptor? :(

okay bye

2010-04-28T05:19:00.003+08:00

thx to ewen, after i read this. my mood jitao drop to the max. :( emo max. thx ar ewen

T'S 7TH GRADE..
There I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend".Staring at her long, silky hair, how i wished she was mine.. But never did she think of me as more then a friend. I had always knew about it but i couldn't bare to give her up. Right after class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before,I digged into my locker and handed them to her. She said "thanks". And gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
IT'S JUNIOR YEAR..
My phone rang. It was her on the other end of the phone. She was in tears,mumbling on and on about how her boyfriend had just broken up with her. She asked if i could go over to her house and accompany her, she just couldn't stand the feeling of loneliness. So I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared into her soft blue eyes. Wishing that she was mine. She poured her heart out to me that night. See-ing her like that broke my heart. I really wish i could have done more then just be a "Friend" and a listening ear. I longed for more, more then a friendship but a partnership in life. Soon she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me. Said "thanks" and once again gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
IT'S SENIOR YEAR..
It was the day before prom. She walked up to my locker, "My date is sick" she said. He wasn't going to attend prom. I didn't have a date as well, and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neither of us had a date, we would go together.. And so we did..
IT'S PROM NIGHT..
Soon after prom, it was time to fetch her home.There I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her. And she gave me the most heartwarming smile. I really wanted her to be mine. Oh how i wish we were together, but i know that she doesn't think of me like that. Just "Friends"... Never more.. Then she said "I had the best time. Thanks!". And yet again she gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
IT'S GRADUATION DAY..
A day passed, and then a week, and then a month, before I could blink. It was graduation, I watched her perfect body float up like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I really wanted her to be mine. But she doesnt look me more the a "Friend" and i know it. Before everyone went home. She came to me in her smock and hat, she cried as I hugged her. She lifted her head from my shoulders and said "you're my best friend! Thanks!. And gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
IT'S A FEW YEARS LATER..
Now I sat in the pews of the church, She was getting married. I watched her say "I do" and drove off into her new life. Married to another Man, how i longed that she was mine. I still loved her, i wanted her to be mine. But she didnt see me that way, nothing more then "Friends" Just as she was abot to leave, she ran up to me. "You came! Thanks! , and she kissed me on the cheek. Once again I wanted to tell her, i really did. This feelings i had for her, everything that has been kept in my heart ever since we were in 5th grade. Feelings that i could never comprehand. I loved her, but i was just too shy to let her know.... and i dont know why...
YEARS PASSED..
I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service they read a diary entry that she had wrote during her high school years.This is what it said. " I stared at him, wishing he was mine. But he never took notice of me. Maybe he just doesnt like me that way. "Friends" is just what we will be. But i really wanted him to know, i wanted to tell him that i loved him. I wanted him to know, that I didnt want to be just "Friends". I love him, but i was just too shy to let her know... and i dont know why... I wish he would tell me he loved me.. I wish I did too... i guess we are just not meant to be...Love,
Tears rolled down my cheeks as i mumbled to myself,Baby, I had always loved you and i always will.Though we may not be together.I cherished every moment we were together.Till i see you again,rest in peace my Love.

sad right:(
i think we should really start a new IG, emo IG. hahaha! i swear to god, no one can win me kb eugene ewen leon and fj. its fucking imba. i think even clown join us when hes smiling, he will end up walk away with tears. hahaha

okay, bye! :)
im missing a couple of ppl right now,
yea! but im not saying out the names. guess. hahaah.
have to rush the scenes for IB and X.S. will be very busy during weekends.

bd coming too
mid may still having filming for MOE thingy
the worst thing is, during my bd i stil have need to go down NAFA for modeling=_=
just sway.

2010-04-28T05:17:00.001+08:00

39th day i gave it to sean hockboon and wee. 3 of my closest bro. sry man sean, u took leave for me, in the end i couldnt wake up. but still i love u man :)
meet 3 of them for dinner. after that slack til 10+ go home. haha short but nice slacking session with them. the time with them nvr bored me :)
when i enlist, 3 of u sure will be miss by me, im very sure:)

2010-04-27T04:01:00.003+08:00

counting down for my 40days of freedom.
guess i will update everyday, who i spend the day with all sort. hahaha

today- 40th day

met sihui, cheng en and co at town for dinner.
had ding tai feng. then walk ard.
home~
ard 11pm met sean for supper.
then leon and tim join for drinks. hahaha

1+ leon and tim went home.
left me and sean slack at usual place.
till 350am.
here im, blogging here. ahha!

tmr should be meeting sean for swimming
then meet wee.

anyone want join in?
wed wil be going to sch..

how about my other friends??
st ?
calys?
kaile?
bin?
melvin?
jon?
kb?
jocelyn?
eder?
cecilia?
meiyin?
cypher?
tcp?
hello! its time to book me:)

i only left with 39days:)
hahahah

okay i should go now.
night peeps

do u know?
if i have a choice, i wished to spend this 39days with u..
yes u.

2010-04-25T16:01:00.001+08:00

new wish list!
now my wishlist must be related to ns liao

itouch
phone without cam! thinik if can, i try to buy a bb. so i can online fb and tweeter even im in tekong

2010-04-25T06:33:00.002+08:00

i have a bad new for
cypher ppl
sean
and
J...

i will be enlisting on 4th of june.
sad for cypher ppl is i cannot spend anymore time with u guys
sad for sean because i donno how to commit for TCP anymore
sad for J because i dont know if i can wait for the day til u settle down.

omg, everything is so screwed. like seriously.
:((
super sad

just back from rebel
just totally no mood. i rather slp at home sua.

AHHHHH!
FML.

i just miss u alot only. :(
does this help?
if yes, tell me. i will miss u more

for those who want spend my last freedom month with me. book me

alright, i think i want go emo one corner le. bye

2010-04-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

TCP 2010 show!
intangiable bond:)
starter cast: sean weilong kenneth xian huan kaile shiying jaslyn adria chinteck vionna eunice roy adele and me
pls support when this drama come out k. ty

this is sean weilong and me.

tthis is weilong.

and this is kenneth

sean weilong kenneth and me will be acting as brother in the show. 4 male lead tog.

they acting is like awesome.. so yeap :)

wohooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

this time round i cant even forced myself to smile.

2010-04-23T20:07:00.001+08:00

what i should do now?
:(

2010-04-19T22:34:00.002+08:00

went pub with cypher clique. hahaha! enjoy max!!!! :)

2010-04-19T22:28:00.003+08:00

seoul garden with cypher clique! just look at how close we are and u will know why i love to be with them:)

2010-04-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

FOP 2010 pics
on the other hand
is also my 5th FOP =_= hahahahahah! joke

2010-04-19T22:20:00.001+08:00

cypher camp 2010

the 5th cypher camp i went:)

always the camp that i enjoyed alot.

thanks cypher!

love u guys :)

TCP's sportsday

2010-04-19T22:18:00.004+08:00

this is the ppl from TCP
always enjoy the time with them. haha! miss they all man!

TCP

2010-04-19T22:18:00.001+08:00

2010-04-19T22:14:00.002+08:00

yea yea yea! finally all the photos uploaded on fb. its time for me to update update. :)

but i think mostly will be photos la :)

cypher camp
FOP
cypher seoul garden
tcp
and
spyder with cliques
:)

want to upload dear and my pics. but i realised, we haven take any photo yet! hhaha how can!
anyway, i love u:)

oh ya, if u guys dont know about it. yes im attached. huh? who? oh secret:) bye~ enjoy the photo k!

heeee

2010-04-11T18:29:00.001+08:00

cypher camp had ended. finally:) its so fun, thx to the campers, sls , event and logistics and ofcourse the main com:)

when update soon when FOP is over..
ton of pics to be upload :)

miss you

2010-04-03T15:39:00.001+08:00

next time if i go for steamboat again i sure will check the weather before hand:(

and and and

rest in peace uncle:(

2010-03-31T21:31:00.005+08:00

ppl im missing right now or i wish to celebrate my bd with

bros:
seany
kenneth
chinteck
jon
kb
wee
hb
terence
leon
melvin

sis/girl:
yuqi-bf
pamela-bestfriend
cecilia-onlyfriend
jocelyn
adria- thumb
meiyin-eh lim eh
calys-SI HUI
st -siao tong siao
kaile - crazy bitch with 4 breast
bin - nagger
ederlyn -dont angry!

haha, ofcourse theres alot more i nvr list out.
alot more ppl in TCP and cypher.
but the main thing is wish nia. haha! i dont plan to celebrate bd this yr. maybe jsut a meal or what.
huh?
what?
oh, u guys asking me whats my wishlist this yr ar. haha! nth much actually la.

like erm...
a new mp3
a new phone
itouch
a new laptop
psp
ang bao

haha not alot right.
what? im kidding?
no?
im serious about all these that i want. hahaha.
anyway, be honour that u r in my 'im missing u' and 'ppl i wish to celebrate my bd with' lists:)
theres alot name i nvr add in because im still thinking who else to put in. hahah. so yea, sry if u name isnt inside yea. :) will add u in if i rmb again.

alright, its a random post but at least i miss u guys:)
anyway, i feel that steven disgusting to the core. feel like punching him right on his face.
okay bye:)

and and and

ily

2010-03-28T22:53:00.001+08:00

2010-03-28T22:25:00.002+08:00

i know i haven't been updating my blog.. sry guys. aha! was really lazy to blog recently. okay lets have a short update here.

ytd was the tcp's 7th gen audition. its the first audition after i joined them. me and jaslyn was the teacher for this audition.

lets congrats shawn willy and yang for joining TCP:) a grp of fun and good ppl:)

after audition went find wee and hb for bball. then home slp.

today had my first tcp's sportsday:)
it was like fun and awesome la.
after that went MS for just acia. nice:)
then slack at carls jr.
just home.

okay, today 2 ppl say im fatter.
seriously low morale now:(
i fat till my body my face out of shape le. :(
ugly ttm.
i need slim down.

recently when i watch some of the video i acted, i keep on thinking wheres the part that i can improve. haha! too lousy liao. think i need more time and exp man! i think im getting nervous when i see everyone except me improved. i can do it! haha:)

sometimes , when i saw those old/handicap ppl. i wished that i can help them, like bring things from them or what. but when i cant, i feel that im quite useless. if one day i become rich, i sure will help without 2nd thought. yes i will.

i still thinking should i go for camp.i feel im extra.

counting down to my bd
counting down to army
well....

photos soon:)

bye

2010-03-14T05:33:00.003+08:00

just back from meeting sean kenneth adria and tecky:)
had supper, my fav glm..

this week was a busy and fun week for me.
so its time to update:)

tues-thur
cypher chalet.
jon jy emily kaile bin kelly desmond fujie bestfriend zhiyang kengboon david
all of them is my cypher's friends, somehow they bring me memories and fun in poly's life. im glad that i met them:)
can u believed it? 5-6smokers in 2 days we smoked ard 200 sticks. thats fucking insane.
pool, bowling, and 15hrs of non stop mj.. its just too fun.
oh ya, and dont forget about
zhiyang's internal bleeding
jon's asscheek on kaile's hand
jon pants off for bin
and lots of thing happen. memorable.
when i off for ns, the first few i will miss its them :)
when pic arrived i will upload it.

friday
happy birthday leon
u r happy
im happy
terence was happy too

off to zouk for leon's birthday
drank 3 diff type of vorka
soul plam, kiwi and the normal one
then martell
followed by champeign
then white wine
last but not least
beer..
after that cab back home

the next day,

i wake up a few time to vomit
ard 11+pm
2nd time waking up to vomit..
i swear to god, i thought im gonna die.. yes i am.
my breathing pipe sort of close up, making me cannot breathe for 40sec..
yes, totally cannot breathe.. i wanted to shout for help, but ic ant also.
luckily, it sort of open up again.. phew!
im only 22, i dont wanna die. hahaha!

okay sort of done updating..

i always though things wil remain same.
but i realised im too naive.
things had changed
but im still hoping
u will be back to me.

well, im stupid.
yes im..
but i nvr regret..

the ppl i missing right now
number one wil be~~~~
ofccourse my BF.
1)yuqi!! :) althought theres time that u will make me pissed off. but i still love ya:)
2)you i always miss u
3)bestfriend dont emo liao:) just rmb the things i said to u in chalet. :)
4)sean bro i always miss u
5)meiyin i miss chatting with u on msn.!!!! faste come back!!!
6)only friend! see i gt miss u lei!
7)cypher clique i miss the fun man!
8)tcp-ian
9)my sec sch friends its random, theres alot of misunderstanding and things i did wrong that making thing bad. but sometime i cant deny that i missed the fun all of us used to have. yeap

life, still move on with or without all these ppl.
but i chose to move on with them. because they are impt to me.

2010-03-07T18:38:00.000+08:00

No matter how much u push me away, i will still hold on to u

2010-03-07T18:35:00.001+08:00

你曾说不想有天让我知道你对他有那么好你说会懂我的失落不是靠宽容就能够解脱我以为我出现的时候刚好你和他正说要分开我以为你已对他不再期待不纵容他再给你伤害我以为我的温柔能给你真的愉悦我以为我能全力填满你感情缺口专心陪在你左右弥补他一切的错也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生我以为终究你会慢慢明白他的心不在你身上我的关心你依然无动于衷我的以为只是我以为我以为我的温柔能给你真的愉悦我以为我能全力填满你感情缺口专心陪在你左右弥补他一切的错也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生他让你红了眼眶你却还笑着原谅原来你早就想好你要留在谁身旁我以为我够坚强却一天天地失望少给我一点希望希望就不是奢望却输得那呢绝望

一直是我陪你去躲回憶裡的雨妳無心的嘆息有心碎的聲音他的好他的壞他的不安定他的故事是我和你愛情裡的烏雲從我愛上愛他的你那個瞬間起一直是雨天你只愛雨天我用傘保護你親吻著你苦澀味道的微笑閉著眼睛我明白你想念他的秘密我一直在第二順位愛著你一直從雨天一直到陰天一直到晴天你逃離過去我一直在第二順位等著你一直從昨天一直到今天一直到永遠我相信是我最愛你聆聽你說抱歉多過你說我愛你你困在雨裡我困在雨裡我的傘濕淋淋『沒關係』是我最常說的一句就讓我等就算我冷至少我陪著你

2010-03-03T17:55:00.002+08:00

how many ppl notice someone close to u is actually faking their smile, to hide their sadness and tears.

suits me.

meeting sean ltr.

ytd meet terence and co.

okay bye

2010-03-01T04:00:00.002+08:00

work was tired, for 2 days.
tml, theres few more hrs to clear the work.

only one word, tired.
have to wake up at 9am.
i dont even know if i can wake up.
which is 60% i cant wake up.
seriously need morning call, but no one to rely on.
haha, nvm! i shall force myself to wake up!!

after work went to kaile's cyn dinner or rather i said, buffet. nice food with nice ppl. :)

actually theres alot to update, but i cant rmb what i had been doing for the past few days because right now, my minds blank. (y)

emmm, donno what else to say. when i saw that r.s, i felt im being push off the cliff. boooo, bomb! bottom of the cliff. (y) song.

nvm:)

GF: i think u totally understand what i meant when i said those things to u. dont worry, u still have me:) (y) smile k! (L)
bestfriend: okay, first day.imy k! smile!

okay blank blank blank. bye

2010-02-23T06:26:00.001+08:00

i just did a quiz on fb. i swear its so fucking true. 100% accurate. if want know me more, the quiz ans might be a good way. :)

Get to know yourself better
Dear Alouis Lim, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are intelligent
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Honest
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Sweet
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are friendly to everybody
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Don't like conflict
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Because you're so cheerful
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Fun people are naturally attracted to you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Like to talk to you
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are a true romantic
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :When you are in love
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You will do anything
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Everything to keep your love true
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that pe
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are very serious about relationships
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :If you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You will fall deeply
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Beautifully in love
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You listen to your own instincts
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Tend to follow your heart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :So you will probably end up with an unusual job
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You'll be set for life
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Success in your career is not the most important thing in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are content with what you have
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of yo
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are concerned about your image
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Not what you wear

2010-02-23T06:01:00.004+08:00

today was full of randomness..
random that i called terence for gym on wed
random that BF asked out to acc her to buy thing at cine
random that we watched 'the wolfman'
random that i shooted BF like no ones business today
random that she talked to me today:)
random that actually today im not as emo like the other days
random that i actually called BAI ZHAN JI when i was walking back home
random that i cursed the fucking modem that causing in my slow movie downloading.
random that i talked to BF in serious mode
random that at 6:08am im not feeling tired at all. GG TTM
random that im happy that i completed watching 150 episode of anime. =_=
random that from no where i have 1 more bestfriend, which is pamele(y)

and here comes the day "most random award" award winner:ANG YU QI.
she sweet enough to write this for me.
she felt guilty for not able to be ther for me ytd. blablabla
while im actually feeling guilty for ytd stuff too.
i thought after this happen, we might not talk anymore.
but she break the ice between us by talk to me first.
and send me this.

TY bf:) <3

i know u care,
i know ur there..

and and and

i have one more person that i love and cherish...
which is......~~~~

sean:)

although we didnt really meet up alot of times after u enlisted.
but i know u still care, as a bro.
those word " eh bro, no matter what happened, you know im here"
really touched me.
or rather a sms that asked me "eh bro hows ur cough"
its random enough, but...

i appreciated it alot.
meet up soon bro.
misses:)

i started to miss alot ppl
tcp
wee hb
bf
bestfriend
cypher
all my bros

lets end with something that not random...

hey dumby, i miss u,
deeply.
i think
ihnctbyb
but still
ily

2010-02-21T22:40:00.004+08:00

my blog is dying, dont realy know what to update recently.
even now im thinking what to write about.. emmm..

friday afternoon went to TENdollarclub with my family. sing sing sing.. my sorethroat turned worse.. after that went to vionna's father wedding dinner . with some of the tcp-ians. drink drink drink, and yam till no ones business. its making my sortthroat worst.
after the dinner we decided to go BQ for a drink. went to some pub called "SHEBANG"
not bad la, free pool to play.

sat, went to terence's for steamboat. planned to play tennis over at his hse. but knn last min tell me, eh i no racket. eh terence, ni mama fong.
steamboat and drinking session was awesome ttm. finally, i felt happy for this week, for the first time really happy and enjoy. thx guys:)
adn thx to victoia tan! she shoot her cig butt directly on my face. yeap. hurts.

after that ton over at terence hse with dom and wee:)

the next day, went home get change. its play ball time:)
cabbed to bishan met hb. played one match and :)

knnbccb, rain =_=
okay spoiled mood totally.
then went dinner instead. wee treated:) thx bro for the zichar.

now, im home..
resting.
thinking about things
and yeap

everynight
when i look up,
when i start looking at the stars,
the first one i will be thinking,
its u.
i smiled, because i rmbed how we used to look at it, tog..
i look down, i teared.
because i know u aint gonna look at the stars with me, not anymore.

its really heartbreaking.
its so hurting
the name " alouis"
had already gone in ur heart,
yet ur name already leave a deep mark in my heart.
every single day, i will think
hey! whats going on?
IHBYG?
the promises?
the smile?
the misses?
the concern?
the care?
the love?
wheres everything?

yes im sad, no ppl know
yes im not happy, no ppl know
yes im acting as if i smiling, no ppl know.
who know? maybe im crying..
right now? just now? or maybe ltr?

i dont bear to let u go, or even better.
i dont even have the chance to hold onto u.
i dont even have the chance to try.

u've been telling me sry alouis sry.
u know, what i really want aint ur sry.
i just want u to tell me,
hey! alouis dont give up, u still have the chance.
with the smile.
or rather i want ur love.
but nope.

i miss looking the stars tog with u
i miss the way u peep at me
i miss ur shyness
i miss ur smile
i miss the time i send u home
i miss the time u tell me that " ihbyg"
i miss u telling me " imy"
i miss ur text
i miss ur voice
i miss ur lauging

fuck!

i just miss u :(

okay, im emo.. very very emo
will u be there for me again?

u always is the reason i smile, becoz u are my smile.
but when the time i've lost u, i also lost my smile too.

but even ive been complaining so much, i stil wanna say...

i love u

okay sry for the emo post. i dont feel like writing anymore le. bye

2010-02-17T15:52:00.000+08:00

i hope i wont cry today.

even i cry, theres no rainbow anymore
there no smile anymore.

epic joke

2010-02-10T04:10:00.002+08:00

what if this is the convo between u and ur bf/gf?

Leon: May i hold your hand?
Chanel: No thanks, it's not heavy.

Leon: Say you love me!
Chanel: You love me..

Chanel: If we're married will you give me a ring?
Leon: Sure, what's your handphone number??

CHanel: I think the poorest people are the happiest people.
Leon: Then marry me and we'll be the happiest couple.

Chanel: B, i wanna dance like this forever.
Leon: Don't you ever wanna improve?

Leon : I love you and I could die for you!
Chanel : How soon??

Leon : I would go to the end of the world for you!
Chanel: Yes, but would you stay there??

Leon: Have you ever had a hot passionate, burning kiss??
Chanel: I did once. He'd forgotten to take the cigarette out of his mouth.

Chanel : You remind me of the sea.
Leon : Because I'm wild, romantic and exciting?
Chanel : NO, because you make me sick.

chanel : Alouis says I'm pretty. hongsiang says I'm ugly.What do u think, Leon?
Leon : A bit of both. I think you're pretty ugly.

hahha! how was it? okay i cannot stop laughing now. (y)

2010-02-09T05:12:00.003+08:00

enough emo stuff on my blog. time for some joke:)

GOOD BOY

Little Robert asked his mother for two cents. "What did you do with the money I gave you yesterday?" "I gave it to a poor old woman," he answered. "You're a good boy," said the mother proudly. "Here are two cents more. But why are you so interested in the old woman?" "She is the one who sells the candy."

how you made your grandmother glad ?
A Sunday school teacher was telling her pupils the importance of making others glad. "Now, children," said she , "has anyone of you ever make someone else glad?"
"Please, teacher,"said a small boy,"I've make someone glad yesterday."
"Well done. Who was that?""My granny."
"Good boy. Now tell us how you made your grandmother glad."
"Please, teacher, I went to see her yesterday, and stayed with her three hours. Then I said to her, 'Granny, I'm going home,' and she said, 'Well, I'm glad'!"

Main Entrance　　

A shopkeeper was dismayed when a brand new business much like his own opened up next door and erected a huge sign which read 'BEST DEALS.'　　
He was horrified when another competitor opened up on his right, and announced its arrival with an even larger sign, reading 'LOWEST PRICES.'　　
The shopkeeper panicked, until he got an idea. He put the biggest sign of all over his own shop. It read 'MAIN ENTRANCE'.

Your purse or your life ?
At a court the judge is interrogating a mugg but gets into difficulty because the mugg is a foreigner who doesn't speak English.
"Don't you speak English at all?" the judge asks.
"Only a few words," replies the mugger.　　
"What words do you know?"　　
"Your purse or your life!"

The Swimmer
　　The teacher told the class the story of a man who swam a river three times before breakfast.
　　Johnny laughed.
　　"Do you doubt that a good swimmer could do that?" asked the teacher.
　　"No, sir," answered Johnny, "but I wonder why he did not swim it four times and get back to the side where his clothes were."　

Rich driver?　　

Two rich ladies were sharing a taxi and talking about the high cost of going anywhere by taxi.　　
One of the ladies said,“Taxis are terribly expensive these days. The owners get a lot of money for nothing.”　　
“Yes,”said the other lady,“and the drivers get such big tips that they soon become rich. They ought to be ashamed of themselves.”　　
One of the ladies was smoking a cigarette. After a minute or two she said to the other lady,“Can you see an ashtray in this taxi? There isn’t one on my side.”　　
“No,”said the other,“there isn’t one on this side either. Driver! Where is the ashtray in this taxi? Why haven’t you got one?”　　

The driver, who had heard everything the ladies had said, answered,“Oh, just drop the ashes on the carpet--I have a servant who comes in and cleans three days in the week!

umbrella
A gentleman staying in a hotel left his umbrella in the hall, but he had　　put on the handle a card on which was written: "This umbrella belongs to a gentleman who can lift up a hundred pounds. I shall be back in ten　　minutes."
When he came back, he found, instead of his umbrella, another　　card on which was written,"This card belongs to a man who can run ten miles an hour. I shall not come back."

enjoy!
and i miss u:)

2010-02-07T07:28:00.002+08:00

do u all know when i heard of it, other than pissed im more to dissapointed and sad.. yeap, not for those who not my friends but yes, few of my friends do that too. oh yea~ thats so nice of u all.

_l_

how will i feel when if i know about this? yeap, u all thought i dont know about it, but too bad i know..
after doing so much, and offering helps.. or rather i can said oh yes ofcourse when u all need me:)
this is what i get in return..
woho. sibei song.
eh ni men mama fong ar.
knnbcb.

u all ask me for help, i said yes without 2nd thought..
for those, i will rmb this. for life.

okay done scolding ppl. now lets have some woho time...
ytd went to bin's hse for her advance birthday celebration. yeap, its fun. since long after all of us meet tog and have fun..
the food,
the game,
the friends..

after celebration went to small mel's hse for mj.. and my luck is back. (Y)

damn song.
cab back home with wee.
inside the cab wee was slping like no ones business but i keep on thinking about those things. just damn sad to know.
ltr having captain's ball competition with reb and co at siloso beach..
lets win this! :)

hais.....

whenever im sad, i just hope u r there to cheer me up.. always.. i dont know how long this will last. but if these will end one day, god pls let the time before that pass slower. i just wan to enjoy the time with her..

and last but not least

i miss u

2010-02-03T20:52:00.002+08:00

yeap. time to update! someone being complaing why i didnt update recently... =x

im here to complain..
yes, everything are in a messed now. it doesnt go according to what we initially said. when u all need help, i sure be there to help.. so now cant even do this?
and u, yes u change alot. just a smell request from u and u give me black face. nice ya.
_l_

monday and tues was brag netball.
monday's oppenent wasnt here for the match, so we won by walkover~
tues's opp was SHL. yeap, 3 yrs defending champ. we lose the match but its okay we lose with pride:)
thx jon jy cheryl lydia yanny sam for the game, tomi fj and zijian for coming down on monday. :)

i had a great time, since it was the last brag i will have.

u know life without a phone, its like the pain in the ass=_=
im so cannot used to it, but well... FML

anyway, i miss u deeply.
yeap U.

2010-01-29T17:03:00.002+08:00

if i knew, i will slp ytd,
if i knww , i wont even play the first match.

yeap, SIT lose.
joke.
nvm~

i dont know what u r thinking,
i think i dont wanna know too.
i scare once i know, i will be hurt.

anw, THX ahyong for coming!
okay bye

2010-01-26T21:40:00.002+08:00

if u all not lazy to read this. becoz its quit messy. see how me and leon wan run away from army. hahahah.

1/26/2010
12:32:43 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
i got all the xrays and shit
1/26/2010
12:32:46 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
that time quite severe
1/26/2010
12:32:52 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
so hopefull
1/26/2010
12:32:52 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
hopefully can geng abit
1/26/2010
12:33:00 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
anyway i more or less mentally prepared infantry
1/26/2010
12:33:01 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
sai gang already
1/26/2010
12:33:05 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
knnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
1/26/2010
12:33:20 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
i wan c
1/26/2010
12:34:30 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
i want c also
1/26/2010
12:34:32 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
then can book out
1/26/2010
12:34:34 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
at least can sleep in air con
1/26/2010
12:34:35 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
lol
1/26/2010
12:34:47 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
lets pray hard
1/26/2010
12:34:54 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
pray hard my x ray come out bad news
1/26/2010
12:34:57 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
swee liao
1/26/2010
12:35:04 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
lung super black
1/26/2010
12:35:06 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
HAHAHA
1/26/2010
12:35:07 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
smoke more now
1/26/2010
12:35:07 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
knn scarli our x ray come out
1/26/2010
12:35:08 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
chiong
1/26/2010
12:35:11 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
they say
1/26/2010
12:35:11 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
oh
1/26/2010
12:35:17 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
alouis and leon don need serve ns
1/26/2010
12:35:19 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
wa
1/26/2010
12:35:20 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
we happy
1/26/2010
12:35:21 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
but
1/26/2010
12:35:21 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
WAH
1/26/2010
12:35:25 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
dont make me happy now can
1/26/2010
12:35:26 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
we left 1 yr to live
1/26/2010
12:35:27 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
i know thats not gonna happen
1/26/2010
12:35:28 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
cb
1/26/2010
12:35:30 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
WTF
1/26/2010
12:35:31 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
GO DIE
1/26/2010
12:35:31 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
LOL!
1/26/2010
12:35:32 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
i server army sua
1/26/2010
12:35:37 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
cancer
1/26/2010
12:35:37 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
haha!
1/26/2010
12:35:39 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
cb
1/26/2010
12:35:50 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
we sure LL
1/26/2010
12:36:53 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
wtf
1/26/2010
12:36:56 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
nvm la
1/26/2010
12:36:58 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
1 year to live
1/26/2010
12:37:00 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
or after army
1/26/2010
12:37:02 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
also 1 year to live
1/26/2010
12:37:03 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
2012 die
1/26/2010
12:37:04 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
gg
1/26/2010
12:37:12 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
come out 2012 we few months left ggko
1/26/2010
12:38:26 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
LOLOL!
1/26/2010
12:38:27 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
wa
1/26/2010
12:38:31 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
no diff sio
1/26/2010
12:38:33 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
or not
1/26/2010
12:38:36 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
we run away from ns
1/26/2010
12:38:41 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
we go overseas enjoy
1/26/2010
12:38:58 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
australia la
1/26/2010
12:39:03 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
i go burn the whole of melbourne down
1/26/2010
12:40:02 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
LOLOLOL!
1/26/2010
12:40:05 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
then in end end
1/26/2010
12:40:08 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
the*
1/26/2010
12:40:12 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
2012 fake
1/26/2010
12:40:23 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
but we have to spend rest of our life
1/26/2010
12:40:25 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
in jail
1/26/2010
12:40:28 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
aus done
1/26/2010
12:40:29 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
go back sg
1/26/2010
12:40:33 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
jail again
1/26/2010
12:40:35 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
gg
1/26/2010
12:41:20 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
wtf
1/26/2010
12:41:21 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
ur idea
1/26/2010
12:41:22 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
alot
1/26/2010
12:41:22 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
cb
1/26/2010
12:41:24 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
go die
1/26/2010
12:41:24 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
i dont want
1/26/2010
12:41:25 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
haha
1/26/2010
12:41:30 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
then u come out jail
1/26/2010
12:41:36 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
you go back finish poly at the age of 35
1/26/2010
12:41:38 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
ahhahahahhaha
1/26/2010
12:42:08 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
hahahahahahhahaah!
1/26/2010
12:42:12 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
nb
1/26/2010
12:42:20 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
i not under deferment le
1/26/2010
12:42:22 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
damn
1/26/2010
12:42:30 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
cb u post this on ur blog everyone sure laugh
1/26/2010
12:42:39 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
wat thing?
1/26/2010
12:42:39 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
haha
1/26/2010
12:42:47 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
from xray
1/26/2010
12:42:49 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
to lung black
1/26/2010
12:42:51 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
to dying
1/26/2010
12:42:55 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
to 1 year left to live
1/26/2010
12:42:58 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
to come out 2012 fake
1/26/2010
12:43:00 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
we run away australia
1/26/2010
12:43:03 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
come back go jail
1/26/2010
12:43:04 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
come back do poly
1/26/2010
12:43:05 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
hahahahhaha
1/26/2010
12:43:08 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
LOL
1/26/2010
12:43:15 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
or not we just paste our convo
1/26/2010
12:43:17 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
to blog
1/26/2010
12:43:17 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
lol
1/26/2010
12:43:18 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
GG
1/26/2010
12:44:56 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
hahaha
1/26/2010
12:45:07 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
delete the burn whole of melbourne please
1/26/2010
12:45:08 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
hahaha
1/26/2010
12:46:37 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
LOL
1/26/2010
12:46:39 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
nope
1/26/2010
12:46:40 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
haha
1/26/2010
12:46:43 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
i will paste everything in
1/26/2010
12:47:14 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
wah cb
1/26/2010
12:47:17 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
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1/26/2010
12:47:17 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
hahaha
1/26/2010
12:47:38 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
haha!
1/26/2010
12:47:39 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
zai
1/26/2010
12:47:42 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
ltr i wil do it
1/26/2010
12:48:11 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
nbcb
1/26/2010
12:48:12 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
haha
1/26/2010
12:48:15 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
i in class sian 1/2 only
1/26/2010
12:48:20 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
hahahahah
1/26/2010
12:48:22 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
mai sainla
1/26/2010
12:49:12 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
LOL
1/26/2010
12:49:13 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
why D
1/26/2010
12:49:19 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
cause i partial, came late then never do rj
1/26/2010
12:49:20 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
hahahahahhaa
1/26/2010
12:51:06 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
LOLOL1
1/26/2010
12:51:10 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
raymond damn cb
1/26/2010
12:51:10 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
lol
1/26/2010
12:51:22 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
hahahha
1/26/2010
12:51:28 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
he sbgl
1/26/2010
12:51:45 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
LOL
1/26/2010
12:51:46 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
ya lo
1/26/2010
12:51:48 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
fuck gl
1/26/2010
12:51:54 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
think must own him liao
1/26/2010
12:51:56 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
foosball
1/26/2010
12:52:33 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
lol ask him go play golf or bball
1/26/2010
12:52:45 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
he bball sch team in sec sch lei
1/26/2010
12:52:45 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
haha
1/26/2010
12:53:12 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
good luck to you la
1/26/2010
12:53:15 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
also not me challenging
1/26/2010
12:53:18 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
ltr he gl to u
1/26/2010
12:53:20 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
i challenge him pool or golf sua
1/26/2010
12:53:20 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
huh golf?
1/26/2010
12:53:20 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
hahahha
1/26/2010
12:53:30 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
u wan me do pull push or snake
1/26/2010
12:53:37 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
wa
1/26/2010
12:53:39 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
u LL
1/26/2010
12:57:49 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
LOL
1/26/2010
12:57:55 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
wah i show him snake in golf
1/26/2010
12:57:59 PM
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
but M all these i dunno
1/26/2010
12:58:27 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
LOL!
1/26/2010
12:58:28 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
hahhahaah
1/26/2010
12:58:31 PM
¾ -alouis say: i want go some seaside with totally no people there and shout! AHHHHHHHHHHH!
¾ think about the chance i never had to say.
fuck funny

anyway, today went for ns medical. im pes D. but pending A. quite sian thou. have to wait for x ray result for my back injury. :) hope will hear of something gd.

okay, seriously 2010 is a fuckup year for me. yes.
every single little thing happening to me is so bad.
and im fuck sway, i cant believe it, i lost the money.
u know when u sway, everything come at the same time, making u donno which one to deal with it. fuck stress, im really stress now..

the thing i heard that make me so down that time
hp bill
i lost the money
that money
even the shorts that i haven return to oneworks, they msged me too~
cb.

but i told myself
if i can tahan and make all this over, i will be damn heng for this yr.

the problem is, i donno how=_=
FML
if can i feel like running to overseas and start all over again. ha, joke right.

okaybye

2010-01-25T04:09:00.002+08:00

i had nvr regreted on........
but.........

i once put in so much yet this is what i gt in return..
theres so much i wanna write over here but i cant.

i hope i can be alright tml..
i lost someone who i can trust
a lost a friend which i thought she was nice and kind.
yea, but.
this is fact, we have to accept every single thing happen to us or ard us. we absort it and learn.
yeap, i learned.
learn not to trust ppl so easily

2010-01-24T16:31:00.000+08:00

fuck u!
seriously fuck u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-21T19:06:00.002+08:00

ytd, jon called me and date me out for lunch and movie at town. To thank me for helping him so much during his celebration. dont mention it bro, u happy can already. :)

met him at town, we went cine to buy the movie ticket first then went for lunch.
played arcade with him.
watched 'daybreaker'
not bad for a vampire movie, but ending quite predictable.
rate 3.5/5 star

after that went spinelli chill and smoke, sowandy came over to find us.
played pool at cine after that.
jon left earlier, but sow's friend joined us for chill out place! :)
went home ard 10+

thx sow for the beer:)
and jon i enjoyed the day with ya:)

i rmb helping someone do rj, the question is what superhero u wanna be.

i was thinking about mind reading.
because thats what i need the most.
for me, yeap.

i cant read mind, i dont know what u r thinking inside.
if i know, things will be much easiler.
for me to know u more,
for me to know what u want,
for me to know what u r thinking,
esp when u r sad.
well, how i wish i have that ability,
so i wont be thinking that much.

terence jio holland ltr, alright:) drinking session again~(L)

i dont know if u know my feeling,
but well
if u know i just wanna say.........

2010-01-18T23:10:00.003+08:00

i was dumb enough and thought im working today at chill out place.
15min for bathing
30min for changing and style hair
15min for dinner
and cab-ed down ..

in the end, the schedule for me not even out yet.

its a major turn offfffff that i already prepared for work

nvm, in the end i train down sbw to find qi. and met meiyin for dinner at yishun.

ytd was a 'date' with qi. went amk for movie. initially intent to watch avatar3D, but theres no more ticket except for the first row. so end up we watched JUMP :) to me this movie quite awesome la. :)
but its was too rush for us when we need to fnish the food within 10min before we are late for the movie. haha! well, sry:)

sat met qi and my again for movie. watch 'the spy next door'
wasnt that bad thou, quite funny.

im happy when i spend time with u
im happy to see ur smile
im happy to see ur back view
im happy when u look at me
everything that concerns u
im happy

photo time!

2010-01-11T12:17:00.003+08:00

rebel!

RP's flash mob!

hongling's bd

kbye

2010-01-11T12:03:00.003+08:00

okay! ppls complain about why aint alouis updating his blog! so here i come!

last week had been a great and fun week for me. haha! huh? why? just because i joined my first ever flash mob!

we had rehersals. its was fun! althought we didnt had enough training and etc! but we tried our best:) *claps!

photo will be uploaded soon.

oh ya, did i mentions about my body clock?
fall slp at 8-9pm
wake up at 5-630am!
haha, not one day not 2 day neither. its 1 whole week!
LOL! rare for me yea?

ytd met wee, acc him to this temple at west coast. he need to return the favor.
after that went for balling session at bishan, the court opp cath high.
wee was quite emo about his army and love lifes. well, me and boon cant do much but only encourage him and motivate him right?

bro we believe u can do it, means u can do it. dont ever give up just becasue u are GOH CHENG WEE :)

oh, desmond from TCP aslo joined us for bball session:) fun day ya. but nvr won any game. first time in my life. diu

i just feel like chatting with u more:)

anyway, Chill out place didnt call me so yea. no $$ = more stress. diu lei lo mo!
emmm, hope this yr gonna be a good yr for me.
pray hard hard.

i only pray for 3 things
1) my family all safe healthy and rich
2)more $$ for me
3)i want to find a gf before i enlist

okay done. bye:)
misses

2010-01-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

SHE

She may be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She may be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within a measure of a day
She may be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day in to a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
Her smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell
She who always seem so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
She may be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I'll remember 'til the day I die
She may be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough and ready years
Me, I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
The way she goes that, got to beThe meaning of my life is she
She, she

2010-01-04T11:02:00.001+08:00

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

2010-01-04T03:53:00.001+08:00

she's cute
she's pretty
she's so eye catching
she's so.................................

omg!

cannot take it
melt totally

okay bye!

2010-01-04T03:07:00.003+08:00

watch this! :)

2010-01-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

after filming

2010-01-03T21:33:00.000+08:00

2 fatty:)

rebel again!

2010-01-03T21:27:00.004+08:00

i love them :) rebel 02

2010-01-03T21:12:00.002+08:00

quite long nvr update, feel lie upload alot of things but i forgt about what to update already. damn! hahahaha!

okay~ new yr eve went out with wee! went club, tio ps at butter but we went rebel:) david cclia cheryl over there. but too many ppl , i mean CB and fuckup ppl >< hahaha so me wee and david went off early.
took NR to greatworld and grab a cab there! my hse was the nearest from there but still i paid the most for the cab. diu the taxi driver!

ytd! mj at small melvin's hse. after that went to meet hb and his gf at bishan. wanna prawn at first but overflow with ppl there. so change plan, went for movie.
i gave 5/5stars for the movie 'OLD DOG'
funny to the max. cannot stop laughing at some part:)
after movie, hb bring his basketball down. and it was 3am. okay~ we played basketball at 3am!
ard 5am, police came and we faster stop playing and chill ard! talk about love and life. LOL

ard 7am, 3 ppl came to play basketball, me wee and hb went to play with them.
stop playing at 10am.
cabed home with wee
eat and bathe.
rushed out for filming
reach home at 4+
slp :)
totally shag day
and im sry that i nvr go for the chalet:) too shag. hahaha!

i dont care what other ppl said about me
i dont care what rumors say about me

im just me
alouis:)
seriously thru out the yrs, i learned.
dont accept me, ur problem.
if u affected by it, ur problem.

like i said im just me.
i had enough of those nonsense, i wont care anymore.
nth personal, just said how i felt for these few yrs.

waha.

2009-12-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

TCP's 7th gen audition:)

support pls.

2009-12-26T20:00:00.003+08:00

lets update something about this 2 day.

thursday: terence ask me over to his hourse for xmas bbq. asked wee to acc me. bella came along too. the bbq food was super duper awesome man! love it
after bbq, dota the whole night with 2 of them. slp ard 5am.

the next day, terence went out with his gfriend. so wee and i went to melvin's house for mj session. after that, suppose to go rebel with mel. but in the end, heard there was crowded, so me and wee met meiyin and yuqi for chill out place :):)

drank not much, awhile ltr mel fel and tiffany came.
went home ard 3+. song!

ltr going rebel, anyone want join?

yeap yeap. bye

2009-12-26T19:58:00.001+08:00

its photo time! i uploaded sentosa outing, adele's bd and tcp's xmas party!
enjoy!

and merry christmas to all:)

sentosa!

2009-12-26T19:56:00.004+08:00

TCP xmas party!

2009-12-26T19:54:00.002+08:00

adele's bd!

2009-12-26T19:49:00.003+08:00

whose hand is holding the door lift? i really curious

end it with a big big

2009-12-23T13:06:00.004+08:00

2009 gonna end within few days, reflect about what i had gone through this yr and i realised i learn alot of things.

i quited sch
i failed in love
i quited in work
most of my guy friends went ns but not me
i fell hard and deep, very.
im fat=_=

yeap.. haha. the major thing happen to me this yr.
but im glad that i joined TCP. a place for me to learn and know alot of nice ppl, like sean kenneth brian adria weilong junhong sy jaslyn ah jie fervyn roy adele eunice christopher desmond teckguan alan szekee
those ppl i knew before i join TCP
vionna fred dex chinteck yyann last but not least
kaile that bitch. hahahahahhaha!

hope 2010 will be a smooth yr for me.
serving ns next yr too. bros im joining u guys :)

anyway, sentosa was awesome! rain for 10min. but after that the sun powerful sia! :) gt abit of sunburn and had fun with those who came.
terence with his friends
leon with his friend
jy and emily
berlin with her brother and friend
saiful and ur camera

kaile felicia cecilia lm and st.. i will rmb one :)

okay, im hungry. bye

2009-12-21T01:42:00.003+08:00

christmas party was fun and awesome.

TCP ppl are always so fun to be with.
i love brian's present and i hope jaslyn like the present i gave too. hahah! =)
after party, went brian's hse to stay over.

then the next day went city hall for dinner at esthen. went find cclia awhile, saw ivy:)

tml sentosa, i think im gonna be pissed again. nvm.

i felt sourness when i read ur blog. hope it will fade soon.

okay, nth much to blog and no mood also. when i have the party photo, i will upload. till then, bye

2009-12-18T13:25:00.002+08:00

hey guys, hows the photos? hahhah

okay time to update abit.

supposingly ytd wee hb and i was going to LW( some casino cruise)
but some danbai forgt to bring passport when we already reminded him on msn. haha so well, trip cancel. hahah
in the end change plan to steaboat at turf city located at bukit timah.
$16 per pax. not bad thou. quite cheap.
mel and leon came over to find us after our steaboat session.
why?
oh, because they want to play mj. hahaha

went over to melvin's hse for mj session, ended ard 5am.

woke up about 11am, ate breakfast and hear wee and melvin at there kpkb for their unit. hahaha

melvin- driver, not stay in.
wee- combat engineer, but stay in.

haha, song!

wee kan sad.
chill bro!

then wee adn melvin going to the LW now, and im here resting at home. song! :)

tml will be the christmas part for TCP!!! yea!~~ looking forward!

bye wee melvin hb
bye tcp
bye eye candy

2009-12-18T13:08:00.008+08:00

followed by REBEL photos!
the photos that my hair gt alot alot holes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
right berlin and ceci and lm =D

quite unglam..

but nvm!! :))))

lastly, lets end it with

this :)

=)

2009-12-18T13:04:00.003+08:00

photo time!

firstly let me present u photo for cypher movie bash!

wee and me

cypher!<3

i always enjoy the time with them:)

2009-12-17T14:40:00.002+08:00

ytd rebel was was was damn awesome!

duabao!
vodka!

3hrs of slp!

woho!

wasted=_=

but thx to my dear brother
(i cursed u to hell)

, leon

, wake me up from no where
(his condition was like far worse than me)

, saying~

eh bro! we are not drunk! stand up stand up, woho!
eh leon i wanna tell u something very long le, if u happen to see this...

diu ni mama fong ar!

cam whore till no where!
i think cecilia berlin and limei know my new word liao
eh! my hair gt hole!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

terence as usual drunk,
leon too!
and last but not least
me=D

but im very awake after an hr of rest k=D

work was okay? i suppose.
nice welfare for eating morning food for lunch.
stand there do nth wil be the worst thing i ever do when u r so tired.
but working with small mel, desmond, wee, hb(1day), pin wen(1day) was damn awesome. go smoke break like no ones business. muhaha
song ttm!

yeap, you are attached now, with someone u loved and loved u.
yeap, i cant deny that im sad inside
yeap, i cant deny sometimes im still emo
yeap, i cant deny im still missing u
but i really cant deny that

im really happy for u.
be happy and smile:)

okay, need go prepare le. meeting wee and hb

2009-12-12T00:15:00.003+08:00

this fwe day was kinda busy because have to spend timw with wee or melvin. they POP ar, bo bian. hahaha!!

wed night wee ask me go acc him to his friend's house at amk for mj session. last till ard 7am.
after that, we went sch to look for ppl and chill in cypher room.

we rest till ard 6pm then leave sch to town for meeting melvin there. had dinner at cine, met kaile fel bong and edmund along the way. acc them for dinner at xin wang after that they went home, 3 of us went to chill out place.

a very good news for me, im going to work at Chill out place soon:)
gt money to clear debt le. yes la:)

today was the last scenes for SP's fyp. and its a wrap!
this fyp will be the last one that i film. i wont have time to film for fyp anymore le, want to spend the time working.

okay! nth to blog too. bye!
TCP filming tml! 930am
and i realised i have to bring 4sets of cloth. song.! hahahaha
bye darlings

some pop pic

2009-12-09T20:34:00.002+08:00

wee and me!
boon and me

teck and me.

i felt this pic damn gay, hahaha!

2009-12-09T20:16:00.002+08:00

YOYOYOYOYOYO!
today was an awesome day!!! just because~~~

i just woke up from my beauty slp! =)

yes! on 817pm. muhahaah =_=
sry boon and wee. damn tired

lets update things about my life recently?

last friday- sean ask to for supper and treat me drink=) thx bro
sat- unable to wake up for tcp filming. but dont have my scenes la=) after that went BQ with terence and his cousin. sean came acc too, although he went off at 11+
drink but dont have chance to sing=( saded. took NR5 home.

sun- tcp's flyer sceen, due to slping late the previous night. i cant wake up again. went to find them ard 6+ for dinner at cheap cheap. shop ard suntec for awhile then train back to commonwealth look for leon. he ask me go drink at ecp. went home took all the chivas wine and beer i have. cab to vivo to fetch mattew. buy some packet of chips and cup.
drinking in handrey's condo. played a few card game while drinking. smoke like no one's business.
went supper after all the drinks was finish.
along the way to supper, at ECP. knn, handrey drove 220km with his car. okay cool=)

monday- slping day=)

tues- wee's important day=)
met boon at 10+. we went rp tog, as we crave long for rp's food. acc ter to kpt, saw cecilia with her cute cute friend. went play foosball awhile.. then we cab to pasir ris tog, realised its still to early. played some arcade, took the shuttle bus to ferry point and took the ferry to tekong!!
go there find kaile and bong first because they are there first.

firstly, let me congrats wee, neo, tecky, samuel, vincent, edmund and a few of my friend for POP!
POP lo!
hahahah
saw alot of friends over at tekong. happy for wee man!
and saw alot of pretty girls. woho

after everything was over, wee and boon and edmund went home to change. bong have to go home early. mean while me and kaile took bus to fareast, to look for felicia. ard 930 boon and wee came after changed. went holland zichar for dinner.
and ccb, fuck u bitch! my face gt cheap face? on banana milk shake dont have la, you dont have the need to tell me " i think u just get a can drink, as its much more cheaper."
thx huh bitch. =_=

after that they went 2am for desert. so ex man.. lucky i nvr eat. slack at playgrd for awhile then went home slp. too tired.

yawn~~~

okay, gtg. bye

2009-12-02T05:17:00.003+08:00

this is a song written by mint. a very nice song, ruin by my voice.
although they keep console me saying first time record not bad le wor, but i personally felt that my voice seriously CMI. well, but i still love singing and acting :)
enjoy the lyrics, and pardon my vocal k:) chillyo

link for the song!

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?ref=profile&id=502213855#/video/video.php?v=192274953855&ref=mf

pls support k=) loves

顶秀缘-

爱与恨之间只隔了一条线人却偏偏要站在中间所有的情仇都藏在心里面不知足的人不会得到永远挣扎的苦纠纷比任何人清楚人往往都要走回头路凡事没有了角度无条件的付出这样的旅程才会铭心刻苦没有爱就不会有恨爱得深就会有伤痕好像尘埃渺小无助是人都无法免俗微笑是不真实的痛苦背后隐藏的痛楚回头看我们走过的路本质上已经有了变数梦被掏空心被作弄困惑复杂的生活退逃不过利益的诱惑是人都会感到失落痛哭是不必要的结束原谅其实没约束回头看我们走过的路本质上已经终止变数

today filming was awesome, quite fun thou. hahaha...
tml meeting sean and kean for swimming. i just realise their names all end with "ean"
so i should name myself as "lean" "jean" " aean" bean""cean" dean" fean" gean" hean" mean" nean" pean" Qean"rean"tean" vean"wean" xean"yean or zean???? any suggestion pls =)
i feel dean zean not bad! but still
i prefer
only 1 louis" alouis" =)

2009-11-29T23:21:00.001+08:00

today filming was awesome, fun and tired=_=

only slept for 1hr and woke up to meet sean.

the above video is to intro the next drama.

pls support:)

okay slping soon. bye~

2009-11-29T02:30:00.002+08:00

had TCP filming today, awesome and good job for kenneth jas weilong and shiying but not for me. damn , didnt do quite good for today but i will try to improve! :)

ytd slept ard 6am but woke up ard 830am=_=
really tired today when having filming. gosh, the ants and all those insects making me so ichy from head to toe.
after filming when home to bath and waiting for the sudden rain to stop. met sean kenneth and weilong for dinner.
jas and shi ying went home before dinner! damn! next time cannot ps us le hoz! must have dinner ma 'SAN JIE' & 'SI JIE' ;)
after dinner, weilong drove us to yck mrt. he's one of the heiong driver i ever met. knn, cut lane majiam free. lane 1--->3---->1--->2 blablabla. but i like:)
thx long ge for the ride.

kenneth went to his grandma hse to show face first.on the other hand, sean and i was slacking at the playgrd just right down of ken's hse. had a nice chat and secret sharing with him.

like i said before, im glad that i met him and know him. he's one the best bro i ever had. thx bro! love u man

kenneth back ard 1hr+. drove to pungol to fetch yang, another funny and handsome guy. potential 7th gen.
drove to eat tao hua nearby, slack awhile, then went carl's jr over at ECP. LOL
slack till 2am+ kenneth sent us back.

kenneth is quiet, but he's a very very nice guy. :)

okay, tml have filming again.
this time round wil be at RP's badminton hall. from 10am - 4pm. anyone free can come take a look! hahahaha!

miss few of my friends right now.
wee&hockboon for talk cock and basketball session
desmond cecilia emily jy for cypher room slacking session
terence and leon for foosball session
kaile and bin for naggin session
the whole tcp for cheap cheap session
melvin for mj, drinking and piaking session
cypher room for ponning session
and last but not least
sean&kenneth for chilling session
esp sean:)

miss u all man!

okay i shall slp now, or not i wont be able to wake up tml:)

night and chillyo

and i wanna say

BMW event was tough! damn

filming and deathchess

2009-11-25T01:28:00.002+08:00

filming at orchard was awesome=D

anyway

poster was out=)

quite nice right

http://www.deathchess.webs.com

go take a look and support=) thx

okay bye and night.

2009-11-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

seany

2009-11-22T20:32:00.002+08:00

firstly i wanna say

happy birthday sean!

finally 21st, be happy okay? and hope u enjoyed for this 3 days=D

this 3 days was at sean's bd chalet.

friday: woke up at 12+ to meet sean and his mom over at commonwealth mrt to go his chalet.
met desmond kean and brian at pasir ris. packed up abit when reached the chalet then went to wild wild wet.
we behave like small kid when at wild wild wet, its was really fun. thx guys for the fun=)
adria and wee came after wild wild wet. stayed over for the first day. oh ya, chin teck came awhile also
played arcade too

sat: slp till 1pm+ then wake up prepare the food and other things, start bbq ard 5. kaile bin edmund daidai melvin tcp came ard 8+ and start eating.
sean was drunk! hahahaha
played a few lame games that killed most of my brain cells
then slept at 8am

sun: book out day, ate breakfast with sean brian and adria over at subway. send brian home and headed to sean's hse for dinner=D nice! love it

the first time i saw sean was at camp U and I, that time we still dont really know each other yet.
second time was at my bd clubbing session.
then 3rd time, tcp's award show.
after that im in tcp!
due to the reason we stay near to each other and supper session, we became very close buddy.
despite we only know each other for 4-5months, but the bond between us can easily beat those ppl who know more than few yrs.
when i no money, he said " bro, have me you scare wat?"
when i need help, he said " bro, any problem just tell me"
he always the one who been teaching me stuff, taking care of me like a little brother.
i cherish our brotherhood alot,
bro! i love u man=)

take good care man! =)

2009-11-18T15:45:00.002+08:00

finally, i had my hair cut=D

and and and
dye away my white hair, irritating shit to have white hair =( old liao.

later going robinson for events=) finally.. hee hee.

this friday have chalet! song la.

sry guy for updating so seldom.
i seriously dont know what to update.
i will try to update more often k

monday went for song recording at evan's house.
evan is mint's friend.

emm, okay recording wasnt good or me at all.
have good equipment, good crew but my voice seem cmi.
this is the first time i felt my voice stuck in my throat, something like that i suppose.

but well, dont care le la. haha

i still haven receive call from Jstudio. guess im not shortlisted ba... its okay, i will keep trying! =)

okay bye!

2009-11-14T06:10:00.003+08:00

after few days of thinking, i was wondering why things will end up in this way. haha, sort of my fault i think. well well, this is life anyway. we have to accept what come to us, and what leave us.

its a learning process for me this time, i learn something when losing something. i will keep it in brain for the things i learn. as for the thing i lost, i will keep it deep in my heart.

yeap,

no matter what we have become, take care ya.

this gonna be the last post about u
thx for everything!

THE END~

yeap! today went for jackneo's movie audition again. think was because today lesser people, so its was quite cold today.hahah. i think wasnt that bad for the audition. wish myself good luck. ;)

something funny happen today, today when i went for the audition and seating down. the leturer from ite simei came and asked my quene number the previous time. it was 166. she kept on looking for the file for my paper. she couldnt find it, in the end she told me. u r shortlisted, why u r here?
hahaha me and guorong like stun for awhile.
then she pass me my paper, saying nvm. haha. wth.

lucky today not much people=D

and thx guorong for acc me ya!

later going back rp, for TCP studio filming!

one more filming coming, SP fyp, jy alouis! hahah

okok, update again next time:) bye

2009-11-10T23:16:00.001+08:00

over. yeap

i dont know anymore.

im pissed now, due to msn. i cannot sign in becoz need the latest version. and i cannot dl the latest version. fuck

finally filming over for change.

and i dont care anymore,
be happy. tc

2009-11-09T02:35:00.002+08:00

oh ya, i just get to know about something.

yes,
its breaking my heart
its so hurtful

but what can i do.
nth

FML

dont be surprise, i wont talk to u again. at least before i heal my heart.

okay bye

this is not the first,
not twice
but 3rd time.
nice yea.
fuck off

2009-11-09T01:31:00.002+08:00

quite long nvr blog, so came here for a short update about mylife.

firstly, happy belated birhday to desmond chua

went zhi char for dinner on his bd to celebrate for him.

thurs went sch for mr sit, and leon was the joke that day.

friday went audition for jack neo's movie. hope will get in. hahahah

filming filming filming.

i need to work.. seriously broke. damn

there so many ppl im missing right now..

but

i miss u the most.
yes u, do u ever know right here right now when im talking to u on msn, im actually missing u that much. damn. i thot i've moved on, but i didnt.

tml have filming again

okay bye peeps

2009-10-29T07:04:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY cecilia THY! :)

OH, my dad ask me go work on his pub.
6days per week.
monthly basic 1k + alot alot of commission. should i?
but if i work this, sure affect my filming

film- death chess photoshot

2009-10-28T20:41:00.002+08:00

nice:)

2009-10-28T04:47:00.002+08:00

this is the poster from one of the film i acted. okay, i swear this is damn cool la. hahah ><

nice work from them too :)

450am, im still awake. omg, my body clock changed once again. damn.. guess i have to slp late again~ keep watching movie that i DLed. alot of cool movie i nvr heard of b4. :)

and that cb leon, i swear im gonna kill him. if i know i shouldnt have told him that my name is stil in RP database =_=

he fucking sabo me for mr SIT! how great.

leon, after know u for 2yr++, i want to tell u something..

fuck ni mama fong ar!

okay, bye night:)

2009-10-24T09:23:00.001+08:00

i love this song.

i guess most of u hear this before..

lets clear our heart, relax and listen to this tog..

:(

2009-10-24T08:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes just wondering...

alouis r u stupid or what,

there so many good girls ard u, but u just blindly go for the one that wont like u.. and let the good girls go..

but, if some other ppl in my shoe, i bet they will do the same thing too.. because, the want the real love that they hope for.. even though it wont end up good...

no matter how much my friends nag me or how many times i have to lie/hurt myself, i guess this is me.. the alouis that u all know

next one,

school.
i cannot deny that i missed school life.
i missed the fun in class,
the fun with my friends
the stressful time
and thing.
but what is done means done, theres not turning back.
if theres a chance again for me, i will study hard.
well well well

i cant see any future in me..
no girl, no sch( only have a O level cert. which can only get me no where), no money =_=
what else i can hope for..

im already 21.. yeap :)
alot ppl have already started on their career, or even family..
me?
nth..
yes nth
seriously nth
totally nth =_=

no stable job, no cert.. i wonder how im going to support my love ones in the future.
fuck my life seriously..
fuck it..
fucking regret..

im smart, yet im not using it wisely. how great....

maybe i should sign on..

i just want to settle down with a good life..
how i wish i can..

if only~

2009-10-21T00:22:00.002+08:00

fianlly, after dragging so long, its over..
i did so much,
happen for so long,

in the end.. im still not accepted by you

this time round, when told me ur final decision, its strange that my heart didnt hurt much.
maybe its too numb
or what.
i donno

sad will sad, but im also happy that it comes to the end.
not something i wanted and wished for.

still wanted to thank you for the memories u gave me,
ofcourse we r still friend.
and i wil still be there for you when u need me.

TST

smile always:)

im looking for a better job,
i want more filming
i want someone who love and cherish me. LOL

to forget and heal..

im hungry, from no where. fuck

update again next time. bye peeps

2009-10-19T03:00:00.003+08:00

finally, tcp starting to flim 'Intangiable bond'. im one of the cast who kicking off for the show. but end result for me is quite disappointing la. its not my best yet, so still trying to adapt the feel.

busy with fliming but no work..im serious broke. damn

i really donno what else to write over here. okay then. bye

more imaging pics=)

2009-10-10T03:33:00.003+08:00

all talking cock!
welcome to tcp! guan guan=)

handsome roy

TCP 1-6gen=)

da ge and ah jie!

super handsome de me and my darling( in show la) pretty right! haha

super suit de couple. okay kidding

all hungry ghost..

the legendary 6breast monster with sean bro.

this 2 ar.. emmm orea couple

yang jia 3 brother.

all like to

act

cool!

yang jia power ranger=)

fervyn recomment me to a fyp production to flim. serious i quite regret on fliming this, because i missed my event job which the pay was few hundred=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

fuck sad

girl, im happy u told me how u feel in u.

yes,im sad. but at least i know how u feel.

i just wan to say i really love u..

although we no chance to get tog,

but im happy to know u.

take care:)

2009-10-09T23:12:00.001+08:00

i dont feel good.
as if my heart gonna explode..

:(

its aching

fliming

2009-10-08T10:32:00.004+08:00

pics time(2)

2009-10-08T10:26:00.003+08:00

my all time fav grp of friends, i will nvr forget them<3

pics time

2009-10-08T10:23:00.001+08:00

tong's bd:)

my beloved TCP

intangiable bond

cypher sentosa

2009-10-07T02:42:00.002+08:00

in a few more hours time, my 2 brother wee and melvin gonna enlist le.
well how am i gonna say this.
they are the first few friends i made in rp.. becasue of them, i enjoyed my sch days in rp.. they make my life brighten and much more fun.

ytd and today acc them before they enlist.

ytd supposingly should met them at 5pm. in the end i overslept till 8+. so i went down to town find them for dinner and movie.
movie so so okay.
but its the time tog that makes the day=)

today nvr slp, meet wee at 8am.. go sch slack...
then after sch meet the others go bugis to eat dinner , sheesha and went to helipad slack awhile

hahaha
well, bros take care inside k..
misses=)

i will be the one of them who gonna kick off the fliming on this sun.. fuck excited. woho

and and and

i miss u